Treasure things around you before it's too late

quote since April

2012-07-13T12:24:00.000+08:00

Step 1: I am always half full, i'll never be half empty.
Step 2: look ahead and not look back.
Step 3: be happy

hahaha

2012-02-03T20:52:00.002+08:00

Probably sometimes the best way to talk to other people is via internet indirectly.

If we can't make it for something just say we have something on. I hate liars, no say no cant say cant got something on say got something on. Although we'll call u bastard, but it's better than been a fucking bastard.

Be the One

2012-01-03T23:52:00.002+08:00

If you dont like the way people treat you, change it.

If you dont like the way your supervisor treats you, dont be like them.

If you dont like the way the management is run, be the management.

In life dont quit, in life dont give up, in life dont be a loser. Move on in life, evolved, be a better person. If we dont like something, change it, use your will use your power, conquer your fear. Fight fear with will, it's true that we're only human but it's because we're only human therefore we know we have weaknesses. Do not be afraid to admit our weakness, by admitting our weakness we grew from it and we strengthen it.

Be the one, be the one that made a difference. Be it make a difference to our live, or make a difference to other people's live. Be the one :)

Subway

2012-01-02T21:15:00.002+08:00

Personally I'm not from a rich family, my parents earn a decent salary able to keep food on the table for us, to give us shelter to live in, clothing so we dont have to be on the street naked.

Everyday they eat simple meals, and birthdays are always celebrated at KFC.

90% of their meals cost $3.50-$5 and nothing more than that. Luxury makan places are places like Crystal Jade, Dian Xiao Er, Fish & Co, NYDC etc etc.

The last time we traveled out of Singapore, it was 13years ago. It happened to be Hong Kong, staying at our relatives house and we saved on our lodging & a lil sum on food.

But, whenever i walked into Subway, it brings back memory for me. When I was 16years old, I told my dad i was hungry and he bought a Subway near his workplace and brought it home for me for dinner.

I was shocked, touched, & every other emotion i can't put into words. My dad actually bought a subway home for me. My dad, who spend only $3 for his daily meals, bought a subway home for me which costs $6+.

Any normal person couldn't comprehend the situation, probably thinking "it's just a subway what," but to me & for me, it's this small lil action that made me felt so touched.

In life, treasure ur family because at the end of the day, they will be there for you when everything falls & when everyone else fails you.

In Alpha

2011-12-24T17:04:00.000+08:00

This few days when i'm back for reservist, i kinda think back to those days when we're in PMU

It was those moments where we're so carefree, enjoyed ourselves even though we're been punished.

Few of us, sat down together filling in the blanks, thinking back what happened in those days. Which case happen to who, who got punished, what happen to him, not at point, late for point. Cases we handle, cases we didnt handle, memorable cases we watched other people handle.

Stupid things happened on shift, shit things that always happen on the same people & many many more.

All the laughter & joy we had were forgotten and now once again brought up.

Argh, those were the days.... ..... ......

freaking miss PMU

2011-12-24T16:49:00.006+08:00

All I can say is i freaking miss PMU Team Alpha.

I miss all the damn fun we had when we were in the unit
I miss all the bitching session we had after shift
I miss all the after shift Jalan Kayu we had
I miss all the Ban Luck session
I miss the Rambo session we had in the room
I miss the times when we stand strong tgt as a team
I miss us patrolling together as a team
I miss the O.E times
I miss the different GL style of working

All in all I Miss PMU Team ALPHA!!!

Quote from Eragon

2011-11-25T17:51:00.002+08:00

‎"Give men your ear, but not your heart. Show respect for those in power, but don't follow blindly. Judge with logic and reason, but comment not. Consider none your superior, whatever their rank or station in life is. Hold fast to your beliefs and others will listen"

Wise words ain't it?

Give men your ear, but not your heart. Many a times when we listen to other people and we became sympathetic. When we became sympathetic we do not know where to draw the line. Our judgement waver, we started to feel for them. Of course it isn't something wrong, but eventually we had to practise moderation. Never let someone make use of you because we sympathies them.

Show respect for those in power, but don't follow blindly. We may not be as experience as others, but we are given the ability to judge whether is this right or is this wrong. Never allow ourselves to be clouded by what they say, we are given the ability to decipher, to analyse so do it.

Wise words hold significant meaning to it, in life whatever you do we must not regret. We must learn to look forward and grow. Let the past be an experience.

Into Photography

2011-11-25T17:42:00.007+08:00

Recently, I got quite addicted into Photography and i bought a new camera. A DSLR, basic lens kit. Kinda regret getting the basic lens kit thou, that point of time when i bought i thought to myself "probably i shall just learn a lil bit before getting a better one" but after i had used it for a month, the spects totally couldnt fulfilled me.

I wanted something more, something better, something that can fits my expectation. But well, i'll just make do with this and get a new lens when the time comes and i doubt i can sell of this since it's really basic kit. Nevertheless i'll just do the best of my ability with this.

City Of Athens

2011-07-11T23:56:00.005+08:00

Athens is a pretty city by itself, i missed the places pretty much. I love the skies, the scenery & the relax lifestyles over there. Everywhere is rocks & it will be rather boring if we were just walking around without a guide. Hence it will be more worth while with a guide or walking radio to explain every single building and rocks & the meaning behind every one of them.

It is a place for tourism, as most of us know, they have the famous Greek Mythology & various temple for God. We know of Zeus, Poseidon & Hades. Personally, I didnt visit the temple of Poseidon & hades.

The Greek Acropolis is the best known Acropolis in the world. But most of the buildings are either damaged during war or from depreciation. Hahaha, depreciation, what a word to use.

Last but not least, I went to the temple of Zeus and this is the only pillage left and the rest of the remains were destroyed by floods and landslide. Hence this is what remains of the Zeus temple where the ancient Greek use to worship The God, Zeus.

Among the roadside in Athens, we can see the Blue Eye everywhere. It has various name, some call it the Owl Eye, some called it the Evil Eye. But whatever the name is, it's supposed to ward off evil spirits. As this was started from the Ancient Greek, now it is commonly seen in Middle East country as well.

In Turkey, we can see some of their Aircraft using the Evil Eye as their Logo.

Of course there's also the Olympic stadium, but we have to pay quite an amount of Euro if we wanna go in hence i decided not to pay. Because it's only a walk around the stadium of the very first Olympic.

Also Satorini, sadly, it was 70% closed during Winter season and I didnt get to go. What for go to a place if it's 70% closed. People told me, places like this shld go with your love ones, so so so so so so so, im gonna reserve it for my loved ones ;)

sentimental

2011-05-28T20:17:00.003+08:00

to others it might be stupid, but to me it has a certain sentimental value in it.

Sometimes, maybe leaving out the lil details everyone will be better off aint it?

But some times, isnt that small lil details that made each other special & unique?

If privileges are meant for everyone, then what's so special between her & her or what makes thing different between one another?

It is like saying I Love you to ur love ones, we dont go saying i love you to every other people because it is meant for our special half or people who we adore.

If today

2011-05-07T06:06:00.002+08:00

If today, we have a block of resident asking for govt funding and support to meet their daily need.
Be it a small amount of $1
Everyday, how much of millions will be pumped into helping these residents to meet their daily needs?
That's beside the point, where is this money going to come from?
2ndly, do you think the reserve will have enough to spare?
If the reserves doesnt, where will the money be coming from?

If we complain the GST is too high, and we're going to lower it. Where is the equilibrium?
If we reduce one, we definitely am going to increase another. Aren't we?
If not, where will the funding be coming from?

I believe the housing in Singapore is getting sky high. If TODAY, we are going to reduce the price of housing. Your flat who's networth is 300k, will be reduced to 200k. Are we satisfied? Or are we selfish?
Or do we only allow price reduction for others and not ours.

How confident are we going to allow a sale rep, a housing agent to run for you?
What's the nature of their job, may i ask?
Their job is to convince, to sell, to persuade, to stir up. That's their quality, but when it comes to situation awareness, is 'talking only' going to bring us far?

If we wanna talk about problem, we wanna complain, we wanna whine, we wanna give promises. Anyone can run for election. The problem is, where's the substance may I ask?

What are the conviction?

this job

2011-04-12T11:53:00.002+08:00

Getting accustom to this job, my work getting better. Every other day i'll be complimented, i'll be praised, most of them says i need minimal supervision which is good i guess. Because that means they trust that i can do my job without having any supervision.

I like my job, and i hope i can stay long in this job. Although every single day it's a repetition, well, i guess every other job it's also repetition so i dont see why people wants to compare and planning to quit and at the end of the day wanting to come back.

But well, isnt life full of irony anyway.

People always thought i'm a social bee, but after i gotten in then only i realised i'm not as sociable as i thought. Like what people says, a mountain higher than another. I'm not the kinda person who can break the ice instantaneously, i need some time to let it go before i can break the ice. Which isn't all that bad la, but a matter of fact i envy thought who can social w/o the need to break any ice. Probably as time goes by i'll learn the art of it, but now i'm new, i'll probably stick to low profile.

Been high profile aint very good, because the higher u climb, the easier u becomes a target. I'll just sticked to my mediocre life, workaholic attitude and take pride in my work.

Travelling around the world

2011-01-27T18:16:00.000+08:00

As i start to travel around the world, i start to appreciate how Singapore as it is. I start to understand how some of our systems work, i start to understand why is some of the rulings necessary.

In some countries, can you imagine yourself walking around at night and the next moment what u're gonna get is some one raping you or some one robbing you or some crazy guy from next door tried to shoot u down with his pistol who he just bought yeseterday.
Some places, even when u're walking ard in the day, you have so many people staring at you, sitting by the roadside eying you as you walked pass them. The next moment you realised, there's a group of people following behind u and who knows what's gonna happen next.
Or places where u take a simple public transport and the next thing u know u've been robbed. Or u put ur wallet on the table, and tada the waiter/waitress who's a part-time pickpocket just koped ur wallet.
The lady who's carrying a baby standing next to you can be a very professional pickpocket who tries to distract u using her baby. Next,

We always complaint that traffic jam, this expressway jam, that expressway jam but when we go to countries without proper road system, their road is not only jam but also dangerous. Any time you might get knocked down, any time another car will just cut out without checking their blind spots, and the next thing you see is an accident right infront of you. I experience this first hand!!!

MRT is always crowded, we have people squeezing, we have people rushing in, we have people not giving way. But there's places where people grab each other, pull each other, push each other to get into the MRT. What i meant by pull push grab, i really meant brute force. Not the usual, i push u lightly, u push me lightly and we squeeze in together. Or the next moment you found ur belongings all got stolen!!! Follow by,

In a country where English isn't their first language, and the next thing u know u're lost and you have no idea how to go back to the hotel. Tried asking direction on the road, either nobody is friendly enough to help you out, or discrimination plays a part, or probably we look like some pickpocket in action who's trying to distract them and the next thing we're so gonna rob them.

Seriously, i appreciate Singapore as it is and life in Singapore. I seriously do.. .. ..

Independent

2011-01-12T04:06:00.001+08:00

I believe we're both very independent being.
We have been single for close to 2years, we grew mature over this 2years.
People always say that r/s makes you distant from ur friends, distant from ur family, distant from everybody but just the 2 of us.

Over this 2years, i tried to connect back to the friends i had lost during my r/s years. It's hard work, definitely hard work.
Some friends welcome u back with open arms, but some just felt disconnected.
I managed to get back my social life, i'm single, i'm free, i can go out with everyone i like, whoever i like and anybody i want.

I went out with my parents whenever i'm free, we had dinners, we chit chat, we talk more. I learn to treasure my family more than anything.

Over this few years, i grew up, i'm matured, in terms of mentally and emotionally. I prioritsed, i know my goal, i know what i wanna do, i know what i should do and what i shouldnt do.
I learn to plan, and not plan to fail.
I learn that if i cant do small things, how can i accomplish bigger things.

After all this years, i finally got into another r/s. I learn to balance my career, friends, family and her. She's pretty close to my parents, they hang out, they eat and they meet up even when i'm oversea. I'm glad that she can connect with my parents.

I brought her to meet some of my friends, thou not all yet. I'm happy that my friends and her click along well, and not with black face or walked away, shouted in the middle of a dinner or conversation.

When we're alone, we missed each other's companion, when we're tgt we enjoy what we are doing.
We had plans, we want to start a family, we want to stay together.

We went to look for HDB, look for EC, consult housing agents and left our names for balloting.

When she's alone, she's very independent. She do house hold chores, she do groceries, she washed her clothings, cooked dinner.
But whenever i'm around, i'll make it a point to fix something for her to eat. I'll cook breakfast and dinner, tried different recipe i have learned over the years.

At the same time i'm realising my goal as a house husband.

Be it like what other says this is our honeymoon period, to me honeymoon period or not, as long as one is willing to put in effort, the honeymoon period will last till forever. But if it's just a mask, once it's peeled off everything changes.

One thing i learn is to not expect, if we expect, we plan to fail. But if we let things flow by naturally and do our part for this r/s, everything will be fine.
Expectation is overrated, it's a pressure, an invisible pressure. Do things because you wanna do it, not to ask for returns. If we have a motive for everything, life will be miserable.

I learn to treasure things over the years.
Now i learn to treasure my family, they were with me during good and bad times.
I treasure my friends, as i have alr lose one, i dont wanna lose the others. It was so sad and miserable, years of friendship gone in a split seconds.
Now I have a partner, i'll do my best because she's doing her best too.

Everyday, as i'm flying everywhere.
These are the people who's always in my mind, that i couldnt forget.

They are, My dad & mum, Daphnee, Edmond and Mingtai & Hongwei, Renkun & Tesmmon, Juliana & WeiWan, Eric Gwee from my Batch. Also Ben Yeo & charm.

Physically we're both very independent, but emotionally, we're very dependent of each other. Whenever we're in SG, we spent most of the time together. I love talking to her, especially when we talk, we talk about everything.
I feel that communication is very impt, if we communicate, we know more about each other. As we know more about each other, we learn our difference and we make a difference in each other's life.
Differences are inevitable, but it's how we adapt to it. Nobody is 100% similar, all these takes effort. This is what i believe and learn over the past years.

Some times think about it, even our mum & dad grew up with us for 20 over years and we still quarrel. What is a few years and months of r/s?

Life is an everlasting experience, it's a non stop learning curve.
It is not only about education, it is also about people managing.
IQ is impt, same goes for EQ.

Pure intelligent brings u nowhere if you have no EQ. At the end of the day, u're high and mighty. But when we look behind ourselves, we start to realise we're all alone up there.
We start to ponder whether people ard us are real friends or hypocrites?
If one day when we fall, will they be by our side?
A question for you to think, also for me to ponder.

At the end of the day, it's friendship & kinship that will accompany us till the end.

I cant wait for my annual leaves, because i'll be going oversea with her.
Hope everything turns out well.

i miss him

2011-01-12T03:29:00.002+08:00

some times i really miss Hong Wei, i miss the times the 4 of us hang out.

I miss the time we all go out for supper and joke.
I miss the time he hide in one corner while we disturb him
I miss the time we all go Genting
I miss the time we go JB and have fun

I smsed him happy b'day, but he didnt reply me
I smsed him to go out with Brandon Lee but he didnt wanna join us

Will he sms me Happy B'day this year?
Or will he wouldnt sms me like last year?
If i get married, he's definitely gonna be my bestman, or will he not?
haiiii

Jealousy

2010-12-01T14:51:00.002+08:00

Jealousy is a very strong emotion, an emotion that will send resentment hatred and every negative actions/feelings towards another person.

I don't see what's there to be jealous about, everyone has their fair share of pie everyone has their ups and downs. Now maybe good for one but that doesnt mean in the future it will be as good.

Jealousy exists btw friends, btw lovers and rivels, btw colleagues. But seriously, the stupidest type of jealousy is btw friends. Especially when someone treats you genuine yet you feel resentment against him, is it fair for the other? Maybe i'm too idealistic, or perhaps the other is childish.

Grow up, grow up!!!
This is something kids will do, we're mature adults alr.

Do not let your ego devour you, devour your ego and eat humble pie.

first month

2010-11-25T14:11:00.002+08:00

First month into flying, so far so good everything's alright. Had 3 check reports in less than a month, surprised yet relief because i might not be getting any soon.

This is also the first time piggy and i ain't gonna meet each other for more than 4days. Our first long haul, which is 8days and a 11days coming up during Nov period. I can predict i'm so gonna miss her like hell but there's nothing we can do. Adapt and have complete faith in each other and nothing will go wrong :)

Come to think of it, we're very blessed. We get to meet 13days outta 30days, aint that good enough? I think it's good enough. Better than some people who meet only once or twice a month or once or twice a year.

I hate it when i see her off, and she gave me that she bu de's face. Makes my heartache but well well, everything's going to be alright. Thou i didnt show her that face, but my dad told her how crazy i am when i'm alone at home. Thanks ar Dad!!!

The next time i'll meet her will be the 3rd of Dec, and i'm following her back to Muar for afew days. Time to visit the family again, didnt contact with them much, so its time to do some PR.

I love the pace like now, everything relax. Don't have to go on super long haul, gets to stay at SG most of the time. Visit the culture of other countries, this is life. But few years down the road, we'll nv know. Live for now, live for the future, enjoy life while we can.

not sleeping well

2010-11-15T12:47:00.003+08:00

for 2days I havent been sleeping well, either i couldnt fall asleep, if not i'll wake up every hour interval. If not i'll flip around my bed for 30mins (i supposed) before i can fall asleep.

Guess i'm having sleeping disorder, but thankfully it's not insomnia. Last night i even dreamt that i was called up to Auckland, that's like so argh!!!

Auckland

2010-11-14T14:28:00.002+08:00

She's gonna be at Auckland for 4days, leaving me alone in SG for 4days again. But i kinda utilise my time by folding origamis, looking thru recipe and see what i can cook for her and fold for her.

After i got together with her, i no longer feel like pubbing, no longer feels like drinking, no longer feels like putting on my earring. Don't have the urge to K at all, to sum things up, i felt like i'm becoming more and more like a househusband.

When i said househusband i meant househusband, been clearing my room, my living room, my kitchen everyday whenever i got time. I can say, it's becoming pretty neat (i think)

When i do something for her, i just felt like doing it for her. Not because i want her to appreciate it, i just felt like doing it. Some times, most people do things because they want others to appreciate it, they want others to know they do it. Hence they will keep repeating what they have done.

Maybe that's what people deemed as giving unconditionally.

Key

2010-11-13T12:44:00.001+08:00

In a blink of an eye, u're gone with the wind. Blown to a land far far away, leaving only your scent for me to remember.

Australia ar Australia

2010-11-13T12:30:00.002+08:00

Every time i go to Australia i'll feel like puking if not i'll feel nausea. The feeling of nausea totally sucks man especially when u wanna puke but u couldnt puke.

The other time when i went Melbourne, i went Merlion-ing for an hour and luckily this time round to Sydney i didnt go Merlion.

By the time i reached Sydney i totally had no mood for anything. Checked in the hotel, went to nearby mall to get myself a Macdonald then nua in my room chatted with Piggy until i dozed off.

Next morning, i went for Hungry Jack(burger king), they had free refilled & thats the key point. Plus one thing i noticed, every where they had this burger called Angus and i thought it was the almighty Japanese beef until i reached home and google it. Sadly, the Angus is a mutated cow stated by Wiki.

But the returning isnt half that bad, i didnt have nausea at all, not at all. Which is something good, so i can at least perform better than normal. Had my 2nd check, isnt half that bad too. Reached Airport around 1am and Piggy came to pick me up.

Emergency call up

2010-11-06T15:31:00.003+08:00

I was on standby but i went to check my schedule and double confirm that i had no flight before going on to hang out. Thereafter chit chatted with Piggy on the phone, she's all the way at Denmark and she feels so far away.

Hence we chatted till around 5am before i hanged up, Denmark time is bout 10pm la. Got everything done, charge my hp before i went to bed.

Who knows at 730am my hp rang and i literally jumped outta bed. When i picked up the phone, only to realise that im gonna to Hong Kong. The worst is yet to come, no information is displayed and i dont even know which terminal am i supposed to report to. So i just went straight down to do my things chop chop went onboard at 9am returned at 8pm.

It was so tiring, but at around 3pm during my break i received an sms from Piggy.

She said this,

"Miss u miss u i miss u Lionel Lee!!!!"

Seriously, i was so happy even though i slept only 2hrs and everything doesnt matter anymore.

Reached home, chit chatted with her for an hour plus before going to bed and i woke up at 3am called her again and talked for 2hr until my hp no more batt before i got my official sleep.

She's coming back tml 6am, and im going to airport to pick her up. Like finally hahaha <3

Daph and I wearing couple wear

2010-10-30T19:08:00.003+08:00

2010-10-30T12:57:00.001+08:00

Saying goodnight isn't letting you know I'm sleeping. It's my way of saying I remember you before I end my day

Monday

2010-10-30T08:17:00.002+08:00

I'm at the Airport almost every single day since the day i graduate. Sending piggy to airport, picking piggy from airport, going to airport myself, piggy picking me up from the airport and it's been like this the entire week.

Today she's going to Jakarta, then gonna stay over till Sunday. But by then, ill be at Beijing makan-ing Peking duck and their XLB. Monday, then will i be back to SG and seriously, cant wait to see her on monday too.

Cant forget the way she looks at me just now. Those eyes, so yi yi bu she. But well, work calls, we need to manage our time well :)

Funny facts, we're looking at EC and the date of completion etc.

Jakarta

2010-10-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

Did a Jakarta today, was super tiring and everything was so fast. I dont think im very very very slow, but i think i should be alright ba.

Overall i felt so tired, but after i touched down i saw Piggy at the airport i kinda automatically recharged.

Like those Lao fu lao qi, wife waiting for husband to come home for dinner. During my silent count, i couldnt stop staring at my ring looking at her name. Top Six(toxic) leh

2010-10-27T14:19:00.002+08:00

She's gone on her first solo, surprisingly i woke up at 8+ thereafter couldnt go back to sleep. On my comp, rot infront of my comp till 10+ before heading back to bed.

Doing my h/w now, preparing for the necessary scene and role play, getting familiar with the preparation before my duty officially commence. I realised there's few things i'm unsure and i got no one to ask now. Jia lat man, hahaha.

why am i insecure

2010-10-26T23:33:00.006+08:00

In my opinion, the reason why i became insecure is because of my previous relationship. But i'm trying very very very hard to shake that feeling off from me. I finally understood what Eve had told me, i thought it was her but now i realised things like this do happen.

For her, for us and for our future.

There's a reason why we met each other, there's a reason why we chose each other and i'll fight for that very reason.

My wings are fragile, like an injured bird. But you bandaged me up and embraced me, and now, it's time for me to soar and fly alongside with you.

Back from Muar

2010-10-26T23:31:00.001+08:00

I'm back from Muar, i kinda miss there.
I love such serenity, if not for the security i wouldnt mind staying there the rest of my life.
Especially the time she drove me around, going everywhere. Felt as if we're married couples hahaha. Haiyo, how i wish time can freeze right there right then.

That will be good, aint it? hahahaha

*snap*

Back to reality, now i'm back in SG. Graduated from my training, somehow one way or another i dont feel that sad which i have no idea why. Probably because i had her with me all the time, thats why i didnt feel that sad.

No idea whether is it a good thing or not? hmmmmmm
Well well well, tml will be our first solo and i get to see her for 3 full days and 6 half days which is better than nothing of course.

*and i thought we can meet for 4 full days*

This sat

2010-10-19T00:02:00.001+08:00

This sat i'll be going to Muar to meet her family members and friends. She had some kinda celebration etc going on at her home town, and tada, here i am going down with her.

serious

2010-10-15T22:30:00.003+08:00

Everyone said i'm no longer the same, i have changed, what had happened to me?

Actually, all i can say, i became more serious since i'm attached. Fun time is over, and i'm all ready to settle down.

Others say, they're not use to not having me around, not use to not hearing my joke, laugher, singing, pranks and mischief. Everyone goes home after work, no longer hanging out after school, no longer chill out some where until 11plus midnight.

I wanted to say, i'm sorry. I only had few more days left, and i want to make it worthwhile with her. You can say me heavy colour, but i need to reassure her. As brothers and sisters, i'm grateful that you all understand this.

Next, to some girls they felt that i became less gentleman. Again, i need to say i'm sorry because the entitlement only entitled to my gf now. I dont wanna make her feel indifferent, and it's her privilege.

Last but not least, my world revolved around her now. We're both independent but we choose to be dependent :)

I hate it

2010-10-14T23:29:00.002+08:00

If ur r/s is miserable, if you happen to not get into any r/s and had never dated please keep your comment to yourself.
Here i'm trying to reassure her, there u're trying to sound all negative. Sorry, i dont entertain that rubbish. If ur comments had backings, by all means i'll welcome it with open arms. Lagi better, if you can converse it with me. If not, please stfu :)

aha?

2010-10-13T11:43:00.000+08:00

Someone told me this when i was working.
Your mistress touch your hair, your cock stands.
But your wife touch your cock, your hair stands

i'm back.....

2010-10-13T04:27:00.000+08:00

i'm back from Melbourne, and the first person i saw was HER...
She came to the airport to wait for me.
*i can cuddle in her arms for hours or even days*

Melbourne

2010-10-10T14:27:00.003+08:00

I'm going to Melbourne today. Cant wait for 12th Oct, then i can see her.

*I like the way she brushed my hair when i'm asleep*

When I...

2010-10-10T11:00:00.001+08:00

When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

Long Distance Relationship

2010-10-09T22:17:00.003+08:00

Absence makes the heart grow fonder, she'll be at Beijing and i'll be at Melbourne.
We're not going to see each other for 2days, so sad :(

I'm so gonna miss her!!! The stupid wi-fi couldnt really work, so sad la can. If it works, we can at least fring, whatsap or skype oversea.

*In r/s all we need is trust, trust can break thru all barrier. I may get jealous, but i trust her. Thats the reason why she chose me outta so many people*

Education

2010-10-09T05:53:00.002+08:00

Education makes one smarter, which is a good thing.

But on the other hand, it makes one arrogant.

Smart and Humble is the way of life, but smart and arrogant only cause trouble to people around you.

In life, eat humble pie. It goes a long way :)

nice

2010-10-07T21:46:00.003+08:00

Nice day in Shanghai, great working partners, great supervisors and great companion who accompanied me around Shanghai.
Didnt shop much, because 3 of us are clueless of what's around us. We had a Malay, a 19yrs old girl and a suaku me. We went to a place, that's like the Orchard Road in SG, and another place which is like Bugis. But we couldnt find any Pasar Malem, so all we did was sight seeing and taking photograph.

but of all things, i miss her the most :(

Hope the next time i returned to Shanghai, i had companies who're willing to bring me around.

yes, i am

2010-10-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

i'm in love

01/10/10

2010-10-02T12:13:00.001+08:00

01/10/10

i'm as lost as anyone.

this feeling

2010-10-01T22:36:00.002+08:00

This feeling has resurfaced once again, how nostalgic.
When u're single, u only need to worry bout ur own emotion.
But when u're attached, u not only need to worry bout ur own emotion, u had to worry bout other pple's emotion at the same time u had to control ur emotion so that other pple's emotion doesnt affect you.

Isnt that tiring?
then why do people wanna get attached?
i guess, because it's worth it? the feeling of loving some one and to be loved :)

Forgiveness

2010-09-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.

weekends

2010-09-18T11:30:00.003+08:00

I always love weekends!!! It is the only time i can rest one full day to fully recharged myself and literally spamming it on weekdays. 6.5days has gone past SO fast!!! to think that last week was only the first lesson and this coming week we'll be moving on to another sector.

Aha, i'll miss her voice, Miss Suan. The way she talk, shout, guai lan with people. Totally memorable.

Wonder what will i be doing tonight, hmmmm.

weird

2010-09-15T01:45:00.003+08:00

I dont rmb whining back in sec complaining that i had to go school, complaining that i had so many homework, complaining that there's so many test, complaining that everyday is so long. For goodness sake i had 2-3 CCA, plus 9subjects. Besides the fact, last time we dont have unlimited sms and we dont have hp games or hp application neither do we have facebook nor twitter where we can access the internet 24hrs anywhere everywhere. What has gone wrong in evolution?

Good impression

2010-09-15T01:28:00.002+08:00

I had good impression of her, and she had good impression of me. hmmmmm, so what should we do? hahahahah

In life

2010-09-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

Life is simple, once u made choice you dont look back

Bad hair day

2010-09-11T15:11:00.008+08:00

Forever and ever my hair doesnt turns out the way i want it.
It's like always and always argh!!!
Im pondering like whether shld i change salon, so irritating.
The worst thing is, Eric and Daphnee both their hair looks fine, thou i dont know whether is it the way they want it, at least i think they look fine in it. Probably it's the fine texture of my hair, ARGH!!!!!

2nd phrase

2010-09-07T22:53:00.002+08:00

2nd phrase has ended, it's like so fast. A blink of an eye and now we're at phrase 3.

Passed my 2nd exam, and i feel so grateful. Because other classes there's people retained and none from my class got retained. Plus i didnt get any warning letter for under performing, maintaining this pace everything shld be ok.

But good things will eventually come to an end.

1month from now i'll be off to go, leaving Singapore and oct 25th i'll be officially graduating. Isnt that fast, 1month plus ago i was still a trainee and now i'm almost ready to get deployed.

safety evacuation

2010-09-06T01:09:00.002+08:00

jumping down the slide is damn scary for most girls. Some broke down in tears, some reluctant to disembark. Some jumped down with their eyes closed, some attempt to slow down by putting both their hands on the slide.

My dear batchmate came out with this theory:

Come on la girls, dont worry man. What's there to be scared of?

This is like making love, the first few times u feel damn fking guilty and scare. But as it goes, it became a norm and you no longer feel scared. You just have to jump down afew more times and everything will be okie.

I think it make sense, but the way it was related is so damn crude.

Hold ur ground

2010-09-06T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hold ur ground Lionel!!!

Protect yourself from harm, stay away from Love.

Love is sensational, took u away like a hurrican at the same time blow u up w/o u knowing it.

1month

2010-09-03T01:20:00.003+08:00

I had 1 month left, and this 2months will cease to exist.

Everything will be like a dream, hope we'll still keep in contact after we each go on our solo.

I'll miss the fun we had tgt, especially the times when we hanged out tgt as batchies.

Everything will be smooth sailing for us, and most imptly we'll persevere and fly for as long as we can.

The more bonded we are, the more hurtful the parting will be.

not only you

2010-08-30T20:23:00.003+08:00

Sometimes girls told me they're disappointed in man, well, all i can say it's vice versa :)

She told me she just has something against guys, and i'll reply her that i have something against girls too.

Bottom line, we're all not perfect.

thinking back

2010-08-29T13:41:00.002+08:00

Thinking back to Primary school and Secondary school.

We were asked to set goals and ambitions, i bet everyone's ambition since young is to be a policeman and yes. For me it's Policeman when i was in primary school.

For secondary i was deeply Inspired by BP Wong, Brandon Lee & Paul Ho and i wanted to be a teacher thereafter.

Coming from a average family, i dont get to travel outta Singapore much and i hope i can go oversea travel around. Play and to have fun, and now, i'm given the chance to do so. I may not be very smart, results may not be as good as other. But at least i made all my dream came true, that's satisfaction :)

Im proud to tell u, i had my fair chance to be a police officer, a fair amount of time to get into the scope of teaching and now, i'll see the world.

Over

2010-08-27T23:04:00.002+08:00

Foundation course has came to an End.

I'm so happy that we all passed and made it to our next training.

I'm so proud of everyone of us, we had a 12hr notice and tada there we go stepping into the exam hall totally unprepared.

The few of us camped over at Victoria's place, i would have stayed over if it's not an all female environment. Studied thru the night, from 7pm till 3+am.

Next week, 2nd phrase of our training will begin. So excited because every one told me it'll be more fun than foundation.

Personal space

2010-08-25T00:23:00.002+08:00

I use to have my personal space, i hate people invading my personal space.

But as time goes by, my personal space starts to get invaded and now, my "use to be" personal space has been re-program and i'm perfectly fine to touches.

It's an everyday thing, especially since my body is very warm & hot. When someone is feeling cold, they'll come to me to extract heat from me. Initially i wasn't use to it and am really not comfortable, but as time goes by it kinda became a norm.

hmmmmm, another thing to ponder bout.

quite some time

2010-08-22T05:25:00.002+08:00

it has been quite some time since this emotion last surfaced.

that emotion is such a strong one among the rest of the 7, one that exceeds Lust and dampen Pride.

Butter Fact

2010-08-21T19:01:00.001+08:00

Going butter fact, because i got free entry.

Why not right? hahaha

take the entrance fee as my cab fare home, then can share cab with some of them, which makes it even affordable.

Guess they're gonna open bottle, have fun taking care of me :x

NO

2010-08-19T00:37:00.003+08:00

i can NV

i must NV

i will NV

and that's it.

a No means NO, no matter what!!!

I'll will never compromise!!!

It's not a matter of fact of can or cannot, but whether want or dont want.

I just cant

*cherry blossom is the sweetest feeling, ain't it?*

2010-08-13T22:10:00.002+08:00

I don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night.

How pictures never change but the ppl in them do.

How forever turns into few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back.

How the ppl who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare.

How ppl make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.

What i did

2010-08-07T17:34:00.001+08:00

Basically a brief summary and run through what i did this week.

Mon:

Cab to work with Fion, and i swear that's the last time i ever gonna leave my so late. The next time i'll just booked a cab or something like this instead of waiting for cab at 8am. We went popeye after lesson, i just had it last week not long ago. After which, we went to catch a movie at Shaw "despicable me", quite a nice show but i slept 3/4 of the show. What a waste of moneh!!! After that accompanied Chloe to get padding for her heels at Watson then i cab home.

Tues:

after work, we went home to rest for few hours, then thereafter went Bedok 85 for supper. Had sore throat, so i ate porridge and that's it. Sat there chit chat gossip until 2am plus then went back home for our beauty sleep. Few hours only, and it's time to go sch. So fast man!!!

Wed:

Ate Carls Jr for dinner, actually i told myself not to eat fried food but Chloe like so happy over it and i felt that i had to give in, if not i feel so bad. We shared Western Bacon doubles and surprisingly i'm not full u know. After which we went to Kbox for K, and Eric kept all the tidbits from me. Sang till quite late, cab home with the Marina Square Kia (fion)

Fri:

went home to take nap, drove out ard 8+ to meet Fion and Deborah in town. Chit chat makan shop till 11+ then we went to Mustafa to meet the rest of our Batchies.

Nasron

2010-08-05T21:47:00.001+08:00

Nasron told us this, and i'll never forget:

People like this exist for a reason, they exist to make the others more bonded.

They existed to make our life more interesting, and i couldnt agree more.

Despicable me

2010-08-02T22:45:00.002+08:00

I finally got to watch my long awaited Despicable Me.

But sadly, i dozed of 3/4 of the show. Damnit, i'm gonna be the joke in the class again. I told myself i wanna be low profile, and i think it'll never work nb.

actually

2010-08-02T01:09:00.001+08:00

Actually, i think she's cute.

hahaha, that sounds creepy :x

A packed weekend

2010-08-01T22:53:00.002+08:00

I had never had such a packed weekend.

All my schedule, sleeping, computer time is layed out so nice till i'm so surprised.

I enjoyed my weekend, with my new friends.

Some from malaysia, some from Singapore. All of us from all walks of life, it's really an experience.

We strived to be the best, and we will be the best :)

I simply love my batch

2010-07-30T21:42:00.002+08:00

the guys are overwhelming

the guys are dominating

we have more guys than girls.

we're having a sausage party while other batches are the donut factory.

But, so what?

we're cool, we're awesome, we're bonded, we're tgt, we're in it together.

We Cover Each Other's Ass, that's the most impt part.

I'm quite close to one of the Actor from Mediacorp. Probably we're both action mama, we always animate, act and act and act. But that's what i'm good in, we're able to mould our facial expression, and i'm enjoying it.

My class is really very fun, because there's alot of guys and alot of us are really crazy. As in, fun to be with kinda crazy. Not those kinda clubbing siao or what, just funny.

Although it's really very tiring, one week really passed by very fast.

nothing's gonna change

2010-07-29T22:30:00.003+08:00

wow, guess what?

somebody's Batch came into my class to visit us.

*clap clap clap*

Life is a Bitch ain't it?

First day of Work

2010-07-27T01:55:00.003+08:00

All i can say first day of work is great, i kinda had fun. Tried my best to remain low profile, like my ns days, gong gong dai dai pass the days.

Of course not act stupid la, as in do all the necessary things and not the unnecessary things. Like Bill Gate says, if you cant make it good at least make it LOOK GOOD.

First day of work was very draining, damn tired, my brain went blank at around 4pm. Not processing much, by 5p.m i'm alr gone. Nothing is going in, back in UNIs or JCs, if i dont like the subject i'll just pon. Bloody hell, how to pon when you're working. You got to keep ur ass glued to chair, toilet is out of the point.

Thinking back when i was teaching, students going to toilet like nobody's business. I think once they start working, they'll cry.

At around 6pm, i'm alr like a Zombie walking out from work. Tiring day, but indeed fulfilling and i'm looking forward to tomorrow. Oh yeah, 2nd day of work and we're gonna have test. HAHA, wish me luck :)

true

2010-07-25T03:53:00.003+08:00

Somehow it's damn true, when u're working you tend to expense more.
But when u're not working, you'll expense less cuz every cents is precious.

The other time when i started working as a Relief teacher, i spent at least $1000+ to $2000 on what i cant rmb. I only rmb buying a camera, whole set of working clothes that lasted me 2weeks of working days. New leather shoes and good food.

Now i'm starting my training, i spend all this money on a more expensive pair of working shoes, a belt that i never dreamt of buying because it's damn expensive. I'm looking a shirts from Zara and Top man, moving away from G2000 concept.

Human nature i guess, omg!!!
Think i need to cut down on my expense, but the problem is i dont feel heart pain when i spend on all this.

If it was the past jobless me, i'll never buy that pair of shoes and belt. I'll just make do with Neo Look $29.90 shoe, and cheapo $10 belt.

Hospital

2010-07-23T15:35:00.002+08:00

Reached home after K at around 2.30am. Kinda late for K because i met Sally for dinner/movie, it was a long tiring day from signing to measurement to movie dinner then Kbox. I had so much to tell Kun they all, but cuz k-ing therefore didnt talk much.

Reached home, around 3plus, my dad suddenly told me he wasnt feeling very well. He couldnt breath and was suffocating, immediately i changed into my CJ shirt and send my dad to TTSH. Seriously, i tell u ar, i wanna cry man. When i clutched in, i almost cried out. I went in full force, my the biting point doesnt bite at all. It means i didnt exert enough strength to engage the gear box.

When i finally manage to send my dad to TTSH, my ankle is throbbing. Ended up my dad had to stay over for observation, so i drove home alone. The journey back almost killed me, especially the clutch thingy. Now i wish i drove a damn bloody Auto car, at least my ankle wouldnt have to go thru this.

Slept at 6am, woke up at 11plus to pick my dad up from hospital. My ankle didnt have enough rest, so throb all the way to TTSH and CTE jam like nobody's business, NB. I had to clutch in, clutch out, clutch in, clutch out, inch forward all the way from AMK ave 1 to aft Braddell. That's hell lotsa clutching i dare to say.

Reached TTSH, immediately passed over to my dad, and nua at the passenger seat. Damn bloody painful la, nb.

measurement

2010-07-23T03:05:00.002+08:00

I was the first few to finish signing the deed, went to take my measurement. Dad dropped me off at city hall and i had to take a train there by myself. By the time i reached there, all those who are behind me were there taking their measurements.

How nice.. .. ..

So i'm theoretically the last, but well it's ok since my movie starts at 5.30pm. I was so excited taking measurements cuz i have never taken measurement before in my entire life. Everything went well, and i use to wear size 44 and now i can fit into size 42 which was an achievement.

I believe if not for my ankle sprain, maybe i can fit into a smaller size with my continuous effort of jogging and working out. Now i'm only limited to upper body work out, and some times need to be careful so i wouldnt injured my ligament or nerve which is connected to my ankle.

Can't wait for the next measurement to take place, same goes for the training. Monday, i'll be starting work, so damn excited hahahahaha.

a long time

2010-07-20T00:08:00.002+08:00

it has been quite some time since i ever go out on a date, dress nice nice, eat nice nice.

Enjoying that moment. hmmm, just what am i thinking?

Idea dismissed hahahaha

Nightmare

2010-07-18T18:27:00.002+08:00

It was the most horrible nightmare I ever had for years. It was as if my house was haunted or possessed/occupied by the power of the evil spirit, the feeling, the atmosphere and the surrounding. Shiver up my spine, MAX/like totally.

I dreamt that an evil spirit came to visit my place while i was sleeping, it entangle me and i was suffocating. The feeling was so real that it sends a chill down my spill. The entire setting was, i'm dreaming and in my dream i'm having a nightmare. Like a recurring nightmare, i was haunted. I couldnt stop praying in my dream, and the moment i started praying my goosebumps came popping out and i kept reciting the prayers. From "our father" to "hail mary" and "the apostle creed"

Whenever i woke up, i dont know whether am i dreaming or am i not. Or maybe, in my dream i woke up but in fact i was still dreaming. Difficult to tell whether issit reality or issit a dream. It persisted until my tuition started. What a night!~

excitement

2010-07-17T23:47:00.001+08:00

I was so excited last night, because i realised i'm back to shape. My endless jogging had paid off, was so happy and everything.

Ended up today everything went clashed. I sprained my ankle, BLAH!!!

All my effort gonna go down the damn bloody drain. wth.. .. ..

Worst thing is, what if i bai ka on my first training, kao!!!

River flows in you

2010-07-16T16:14:00.002+08:00

Nothing to do at home, practises my keyboard every other day. Playing river flows in you, to end's love and Kiss the Rain.

Its totally Oh my lala la, Kiss the rains sounded so simplistic but when i looked at the score i almost died choking. So complicated, plus my fingers aint that flexible, so screw it la.

Other than that, been jogging and eating Maggie Mee if i'm at home. Bad for hair, hair loss had to go Yun nan, waste money.. .. ..

my quote since april

2010-07-15T14:49:00.003+08:00

1 year had passed, since i put this

Step 1: I am always half full, i'll never be half empty.
Step 2: look ahead and not look back.
Step 3: be happy

Well, i extended it again, for another one more year to remind myself. It will be the top post for another year.

I think i had accomplish all the steps, but the problem is had i really accomplished?

ahahahah, philosophical Q&A sucks.

bad habit

2010-07-15T02:07:00.001+08:00

My bad habit still unable to shake off, hate last min change of plan.

Meaning, hate last min backing out.

Well, guess i get to get use to it, nb.. .. ..

touched

2010-07-12T21:55:00.001+08:00

My student actually asked me when am i going oversea?

If i'm going alr, they wanna come to the airport and see me off T.T

tired

2010-07-12T21:38:00.003+08:00

i feeling so tired every single other days, not due to the fact that i dont have enough sleep. But the matter of fact that, im aimlessly doing nothing every afternoon. But at least i'm pretty occupied by jogging every single other day and night, which is rather fulfilling. Kinda wanna get back to shape before work starts, trim off that damn 8kg i put on during that bloody examination period.

Well well, that aside, i'm actually giving 9 tuitions plus another 2 new enrollment. Sadly i got to say no to them, because of my new career, and on top of that im gonna stop giving tuition to 2 of my other tuition kid and concentrate on my other 7.

Another new headache, i dont know who to pass them to. I dont wanna let them hanging loose, but i couldnt find any eligible tutor for them at the same time. Damnit, sian.. ... ....

Probably see how things go, OH, and i met up with Shuen. Found out abit bout my job, so now more or less i know how things work :)

fresh grads

2010-07-10T13:36:00.002+08:00

Fresh grads are boring, we do nothing but stay at home everyday.

Peers and friends are working.

Only free time is after 7pm, the time left before 7pm stay at home and nua.

I use to think that, shiok, dont work nua at home. But i take back my words, hahahaha. Staying at home can be such chores. So bored until i started packing my room, moving my furniture, shifting it, throwing away books and clothes. Now i only need a Sofa bed to complete my set, everything will be just fine and big enough.

Why do i need such a big room for?

Beats me, better then when it's small. Cant wait to get a tv in my room and a PSP3 or Xbox360 or a WII.

I made it

2010-07-07T18:53:00.003+08:00

I made it!!!

After first round of interview

Final round of management interview

last round of Medical review

I received the call on July 7th 2010 4pm

"Lionel Lee? Here to inform you, you cleared your medical please report to STC on the August 5th for your training."

I have made it, i'm so happy that i hop around the corridor outside my house.

cuz.. ... ....

i picked up the call when i was out :)

This is like a dream come true, aside from cleaning the toilet etc etc etc

ironic

2010-07-05T18:52:00.002+08:00

So what's with the all good guys are either taken, dead or gay.

I think all nice girls are either taken, dead or lesbian :)

what the hell?

2010-06-30T15:21:00.003+08:00

If u're friendly, people say u're flirt

if u're nice, people say u're hypocrite

if u're concern, people say u're fake

what the hell?

In this god damn whole 7years, i only had 2 r/s. If u think i'm flirt? It's probably u're useless, so stop judging me using that superficial means of yours.

I dont go around saying "i miss you" to every girl or stuff like "i wouldnt mind doing this just for you", or "i'm waiting for you">

I'm tired of "you look like a player" too, sickening.

Just to make myself clear :)

final round

2010-06-27T15:15:00.002+08:00

i passed my final round :)

tml will be my medical, hope everything shun shun

good news

2010-06-26T19:54:00.001+08:00

i actually pass the first 4 rounds of the interview

tml will be my final 2 rounds, nervous and excited

*hyperventilating*

Grew up

2010-06-23T16:05:00.002+08:00

the biggest enemy is not others but yourself.

If you conquer yourself, u're ready to conquer the world.

I dare to say, i'm ready to conquer the world.

Jealousy, self denial, conceit are just additional emotions.

Explore ur weakness, and improve to be a better person :)

Me

2010-06-23T16:03:00.003+08:00

If you think i'm childish, if u think i cant grow up.
Sorry, you're wrong.

I merely retain my child like self, i'm matured just that i choose to be childish :)

hmmmmmm

2010-06-04T06:41:00.003+08:00

有一些事不是说忘就能忘，不是说睡一觉起来一切都没发生过。

我觉得我总是活在自己的回忆里，人家常说爱得越深恨得越深。

我还在弥补我的过失，失就是失去的失。

每天读着man are from mars, and woman are from venus,没事没事就看看爱情偶像剧。

虽然一点都不真实，但是看着人家幸福的爱情里画上一个句点，总有一种甜蜜的感觉。

在路上走着走着，看着每个人幸幸福福的手牵着手，心里总会感到一点低落。

Everyone asked me, had i moved on?

Confidently i'll tell them yes i have, but deep within me. Had I?

How many times, there's a chance right infront of me and i let it slipped pass me again and again and again.

An invisible phobia, especially towards schooling girls, who's in Poly, or in Uni. Because I just dont feel secure, i dont feel secure at all. I'll have the mentality they'll be unhappy and meet some new guy and then just dump me aside.

What everyone sees are what i choose to show, what's actually inside me only i'll know. I may seem to be optimistic, cheerful, playful and enjoying myself. But how many people actually uncover that layer of cocoon and see what's beneath it? A defenseless naked caterpillar lying there helplessly. Thinking bout the stupid and lame breakup reasons back then, thinking what have i done wrong.

I cannot be like Edmond, one after another, moving on so swiftly.

I cannot be like Kun, so happily tgt with his love one.

I cannot be like Mingtai, happily enjoying his life of solitude.

This darkness, at times, is so dark that i lose my direction. I love my family, and all my best friends are like my brothers. All of you are part of my family, that is to say, if something happen to me you all wouldnt be here, i'm okie with it. But if something happen to you guys, i'll be there immediately.

When listening to my mp3 playlist, people always ask me, why i like to listen to emo songs. Actually i'm used to listenng to emo songs, to the extend that i had no idea i'm listening to emo songs. Some how i find that, it suits my mood. So am i right to say i'm feeling emo everyday? I doubt so right?

Some times people asked me, had i moved on?

My answers will be, "i still look at her facebook"

Some times, when i go to Hougang Mall, there'll be alot of fond memories. So i choose not to go there as much as possible. I use to study at Kovan everyday and i switched to Rivervale Plaza.

People also asked me, if given a 2nd chance what will i do?

I have no idea, joke of the day indeed.

Because anyone in a clear state of mind will say Hell No.

Some times people asked me why i like to sigh?

I'll say, i have no idea. Just some habit i develop after April Fool.

Some times people asked me, why i still have her photos in my hp. Why dont wanna delete?

i have no idea too, i dont look at it too. I just have it, and it just happened to be there.

I missed the feeling of having someone to be there when you need them, having the shoulder to lie on, knowing everything will be fine as long as the someone is there.

some times

2010-05-08T01:01:00.003+08:00

Some times u missed someone so much but u just didnt have the courage to drop the person an sms. Firstly, cuz you afraid the person doesnt reply you, 2ndly, you're afraid the person might find you irritating.

How ironic, things are so much better and comfortable when we're friends. Isn't that true? Edmond? hahahhaa

Live in the past

2010-04-27T15:14:00.001+08:00

The most scary thing in life is to live in the past, to think bout what happened in the past. Wondering how nice things will be if it turn out this way or remain as it is.

Living in the past blind us, giving us a misconception that things happening around us are bad or rather the past was so good that the present seems to be dull.

Why must we allow ourselves to indulge in things that can never be turned back upon?

If we live in the past, we're not giving ourselves a chance to look at what's happening around us. We must understand one thing, time doesnt wait for me, neither does it wait for you nor you. Even if we stopped now, refuse to move an inch, time will wait no one. Everything around you will con't to move, ur neighbour will con't to wake up at 7am to go to work, their son will catch the school bus at 710am, the maid will water the plant at 730am, Channel news asia will con't to broadcast morning news.

We must be strong, only if we're strong then we are independent. When we are independent, people will depend on us because we are reliable. Reliability gives people a sense of security. Nothing is easy, but there's nothing call impossible. The only impossible barrier is ourselves, if we conquer ourselves, we're ready to conquer anything.

Cheer up, be happy and be who you are. We are who we are and not what others want us to be.

When things go wrong

2010-04-24T05:11:00.001+08:00

1. I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth.

2. I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord.

3. He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary.

4. He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried.

5. He descended into hell. On the third day he rose again.

6. He ascended into heaven and is seated at the right hand of the Father.

7. He will come again to judge the living and the dead.

8. I believe in the Holy Spirit,

9. the holy catholic Church, the communion of saints,

10. the forgiveness of sins,

11. the resurrection of the body,

12. and life everlasting.

Amen.

working

2010-04-23T16:31:00.003+08:00

When i start working

i wanna buy a new TV for my parents

i wanna buy a new fridge for my parents

i wanna buy a new washing machine for my parents

i wanna bring my parents go for a movie

i wanna bring my parents for holiday

i wanna give my parents a better life. . . . . . .

Isnt that why i'm studying so hard for?

Yes, that's the reason why i'm studying so hard for, so that they will be proud of me :)

2010-04-10T13:26:00.001+08:00

做好男人被人欺，我不想再做好男人了

exams coming

2010-04-09T14:20:00.004+08:00

so excited, exams coming means exams gonna be over!!!

not yet started yet i cant wait for it to end hahaha, lionel wake up wake up!!! No obstacle this year, so by right i should do better than last yr right?

No one to affect you, so you can do it well this year. Focus focus, concentrate concentrate!!!

Mug everyday every night until May 7th then May 25th its good bye to education :)

hmmmm

2010-02-18T00:55:00.001+08:00

to me, Edmond and Ming Tai are my best friends.

that means i'll do anything for them that's within my capability.

but do i weigh the same to them?

Dont know why, just thought of it.

Story of a star fish

2010-02-08T02:48:00.003+08:00

Once a man was walking along a beach. The sun was shining and it was a beautiful day. Off in the distance he could see a person going back and forth between the surf's edge and and the beach. Back and forth this person went. As the man approached he could see that there were hundreds of starfish stranded on the sand as the result of the natural action of the tide.

The man was stuck by the the apparent futility of the task. There were far too many starfish. Many of them were sure to perish. As he approached the person continued the task of picking up starfish one by one and throwing them into the surf.

As he came up to the person he said, "You must be crazy. There are thousands of miles of beach covered with starfish. You can't possibly make a difference." The person looked at the man. He then stooped down and pick up one more starfish and threw it back into the ocean. He turned back to the man and said, "It sure made a difference to that one!"

some times

2010-01-23T03:15:00.008+08:00

some times when some one said something and that some thing feels like some bull shit i cant help it but to point a middle finger to that some one.

It just feels so ridicules and stupid and dumb and doesnt make sense and no logic and practically asking for it.

It's like instinctively your middle finger will just stick out, some kinda sub conscious action that i had cultivated over the past few weeks.

Funny huh, actually no, i think instinctively that some one deserve my middle finger. One is an understatement 2 is still not enough how i wish i had 4

tuition

2010-01-19T00:54:00.003+08:00

i had this feeling this year i'll be damn busy. Cuz of teaching, tuitioning and Uni studies.
Like all 3 things stack tgt and my schedule suddenly turns out to be very compact.

Initially i had only 2 tuition kids, 1 graduated so left with Shannon only. But Kenneth's parents intro another 2 more to me and now i turned out to have 3 tuition kids. Recently, there's a new kid in town who wants me to tuition too so now i had 4 plus Kenneth's dad gonna introduce the cousin to me. If i take on that i'll be having 5 tuition kids.

Which is pretty cool seriously!!!
Other than that, plus students from the school im teaching, i think i have quite a handful of them to teach.

Teaching this new kid in town, seriously. I'm speechless.. .. .. ..
He had tuition for last year and i had not idea what the hell is the damn tuition teacher doing. Must be one of those cheat money tutor again. But no, when i asked he told me she charged him very low. Like just wanna help him and stuff lidat. But doesnt look like helping seriously, if it's helping the grade wouldnt be like this already.

Sec 3 work, but im going through sec2 foundation with him. Picking up, which isnt very bad. Doing it slow and steady, hope i can rush the syllabus for him before his common test. Didnt wanna waste too much time on sec2 work.

As for Shannon, i think is i zui fang xin wan. Because she's very good alr, from B3 to A1 and her A1 is those A* grade. For the new Sec2 boy, there's some polishing to do, foundation for + - and multiplication of + and -. Gonna drill more of those on my next lessons.

Still, i think, if cant teach pls dont teach. But everyone has different priorities i guess.

Ring

2010-01-11T01:41:00.002+08:00

My mum was packing my stuff and she found this ring where i hid it inside the Adidas paper bag. Come to think of it, i havent been wearing a ring for more than 8months ++
I looked at the ring, stoof there ponder for awhile, and went to my Gundam to retrieve this ring i had put there.

I couldnt rmb this rings belong to who, couldnt rmb the design and couldnt rmb when i worn it. I wear the ring, looked into the mirror. I totally forgot the feeling to have a ring. Funny? Weird? the feeling is so alien like i'm not use to it.

But after wearing the ring for awhile, i took it off. It was another sensation, i couldnt describe, like something is missing lol.

new year new hair new resolution

2010-01-09T03:12:00.001+08:00

New year New Hair New Resolution
My 3months rule, never to keep a hairstyle for more than 3months. Currently revert back to spike, but it's different from the spike i use to have cuz this time round there's no fringe. So the front part is kinda like upward spiking.

(: What comes around goes around, what go up will eventually come down :)