When I...

When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

Long Distance Relationship

Absence makes the heart grow fonder, she'll be at Beijing and i'll be at Melbourne.
We're not going to see each other for 2days, so sad :(

I'm so gonna miss her!!! The stupid wi-fi couldnt really work, so sad la can. If it works, we can at least fring, whatsap or skype oversea.

*In r/s all we need is trust, trust can break thru all barrier. I may get jealous, but i trust her. Thats the reason why she chose me outta so many people*

Education

Education makes one smarter, which is a good thing.

But on the other hand, it makes one arrogant.

Smart and Humble is the way of life, but smart and arrogant only cause trouble to people around you.

In life, eat humble pie. It goes a long way :)

nice

Nice day in Shanghai, great working partners, great supervisors and great companion who accompanied me around Shanghai.
Didnt shop much, because 3 of us are clueless of what's around us. We had a Malay, a 19yrs old girl and a suaku me. We went to a place, that's like the Orchard Road in SG, and another place which is like Bugis. But we couldnt find any Pasar Malem, so all we did was sight seeing and taking photograph.

but of all things, i miss her the most :(

Hope the next time i returned to Shanghai, i had companies who're willing to bring me around.

yes, i am

i'm in love

01/10/10

01/10/10

i'm as lost as anyone.

this feeling

This feeling has resurfaced once again, how nostalgic.
When u're single, u only need to worry bout ur own emotion.
But when u're attached, u not only need to worry bout ur own emotion, u had to worry bout other pple's emotion at the same time u had to control ur emotion so that other pple's emotion doesnt affect you.

Isnt that tiring?
then why do people wanna get attached?
i guess, because it's worth it? the feeling of loving some one and to be loved :)

Forgiveness

forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.

weekends

I always love weekends!!! It is the only time i can rest one full day to fully recharged myself and literally spamming it on weekdays. 6.5days has gone past SO fast!!! to think that last week was only the first lesson and this coming week we'll be moving on to another sector.

Aha, i'll miss her voice, Miss Suan. The way she talk, shout, guai lan with people. Totally memorable.

Wonder what will i be doing tonight, hmmmm.

weird

I dont rmb whining back in sec complaining that i had to go school, complaining that i had so many homework, complaining that there's so many test, complaining that everyday is so long. For goodness sake i had 2-3 CCA, plus 9subjects. Besides the fact, last time we dont have unlimited sms and we dont have hp games or hp application neither do we have facebook nor twitter where we can access the internet 24hrs anywhere everywhere. What has gone wrong in evolution?

Good impression

I had good impression of her, and she had good impression of me. hmmmmm, so what should we do? hahahahah

In life

Life is simple, once u made choice you dont look back

Bad hair day

Forever and ever my hair doesnt turns out the way i want it.
It's like always and always argh!!!
Im pondering like whether shld i change salon, so irritating.
The worst thing is, Eric and Daphnee both their hair looks fine, thou i dont know whether is it the way they want it, at least i think they look fine in it. Probably it's the fine texture of my hair, ARGH!!!!!

2nd phrase

2nd phrase has ended, it's like so fast. A blink of an eye and now we're at phrase 3.

Passed my 2nd exam, and i feel so grateful. Because other classes there's people retained and none from my class got retained. Plus i didnt get any warning letter for under performing, maintaining this pace everything shld be ok.

But good things will eventually come to an end.

1month from now i'll be off to go, leaving Singapore and oct 25th i'll be officially graduating. Isnt that fast, 1month plus ago i was still a trainee and now i'm almost ready to get deployed.

safety evacuation

jumping down the slide is damn scary for most girls. Some broke down in tears, some reluctant to disembark. Some jumped down with their eyes closed, some attempt to slow down by putting both their hands on the slide.

My dear batchmate came out with this theory:

Come on la girls, dont worry man. What's there to be scared of?

This is like making love, the first few times u feel damn fking guilty and scare. But as it goes, it became a norm and you no longer feel scared. You just have to jump down afew more times and everything will be okie.

I think it make sense, but the way it was related is so damn crude.

Hold ur ground

Hold ur ground Lionel!!!

Protect yourself from harm, stay away from Love.

Love is sensational, took u away like a hurrican at the same time blow u up w/o u knowing it.

1month

I had 1 month left, and this 2months will cease to exist.

Everything will be like a dream, hope we'll still keep in contact after we each go on our solo.

I'll miss the fun we had tgt, especially the times when we hanged out tgt as batchies.

Everything will be smooth sailing for us, and most imptly we'll persevere and fly for as long as we can.

The more bonded we are, the more hurtful the parting will be.

not only you

Sometimes girls told me they're disappointed in man, well, all i can say it's vice versa :)

She told me she just has something against guys, and i'll reply her that i have something against girls too.

Bottom line, we're all not perfect.

thinking back

Thinking back to Primary school and Secondary school.

We were asked to set goals and ambitions, i bet everyone's ambition since young is to be a policeman and yes. For me it's Policeman when i was in primary school.

For secondary i was deeply Inspired by BP Wong, Brandon Lee & Paul Ho and i wanted to be a teacher thereafter.

Coming from a average family, i dont get to travel outta Singapore much and i hope i can go oversea travel around. Play and to have fun, and now, i'm given the chance to do so. I may not be very smart, results may not be as good as other. But at least i made all my dream came true, that's satisfaction :)

Im proud to tell u, i had my fair chance to be a police officer, a fair amount of time to get into the scope of teaching and now, i'll see the world.

Over

Foundation course has came to an End.

I'm so happy that we all passed and made it to our next training.

I'm so proud of everyone of us, we had a 12hr notice and tada there we go stepping into the exam hall totally unprepared.

The few of us camped over at Victoria's place, i would have stayed over if it's not an all female environment. Studied thru the night, from 7pm till 3+am.

Next week, 2nd phrase of our training will begin. So excited because every one told me it'll be more fun than foundation.

Personal space

I use to have my personal space, i hate people invading my personal space.

But as time goes by, my personal space starts to get invaded and now, my "use to be" personal space has been re-program and i'm perfectly fine to touches.

It's an everyday thing, especially since my body is very warm & hot. When someone is feeling cold, they'll come to me to extract heat from me. Initially i wasn't use to it and am really not comfortable, but as time goes by it kinda became a norm.

hmmmmm, another thing to ponder bout.

quite some time

it has been quite some time since this emotion last surfaced.

that emotion is such a strong one among the rest of the 7, one that exceeds Lust and dampen Pride.

Butter Fact

Going butter fact, because i got free entry.

Why not right? hahaha

take the entrance fee as my cab fare home, then can share cab with some of them, which makes it even affordable.

Guess they're gonna open bottle, have fun taking care of me :x

i can NV

i must NV

i will NV

and that's it.

a No means NO, no matter what!!!

I'll will never compromise!!!

It's not a matter of fact of can or cannot, but whether want or dont want.

I just cant

*cherry blossom is the sweetest feeling, ain't it?*

I don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night.

How pictures never change but the ppl in them do.

How forever turns into few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back.

How the ppl who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare.

How ppl make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.

What i did

Basically a brief summary and run through what i did this week.

Mon:

Cab to work with Fion, and i swear that's the last time i ever gonna leave my so late. The next time i'll just booked a cab or something like this instead of waiting for cab at 8am. We went popeye after lesson, i just had it last week not long ago. After which, we went to catch a movie at Shaw "despicable me", quite a nice show but i slept 3/4 of the show. What a waste of moneh!!! After that accompanied Chloe to get padding for her heels at Watson then i cab home.

Tues:

after work, we went home to rest for few hours, then thereafter went Bedok 85 for supper. Had sore throat, so i ate porridge and that's it. Sat there chit chat gossip until 2am plus then went back home for our beauty sleep. Few hours only, and it's time to go sch. So fast man!!!

Wed:

Ate Carls Jr for dinner, actually i told myself not to eat fried food but Chloe like so happy over it and i felt that i had to give in, if not i feel so bad. We shared Western Bacon doubles and surprisingly i'm not full u know. After which we went to Kbox for K, and Eric kept all the tidbits from me. Sang till quite late, cab home with the Marina Square Kia (fion)

Fri:

went home to take nap, drove out ard 8+ to meet Fion and Deborah in town. Chit chat makan shop till 11+ then we went to Mustafa to meet the rest of our Batchies.

Nasron

Nasron told us this, and i'll never forget:

People like this exist for a reason, they exist to make the others more bonded.

They existed to make our life more interesting, and i couldnt agree more.

Despicable me

I finally got to watch my long awaited Despicable Me.

But sadly, i dozed of 3/4 of the show. Damnit, i'm gonna be the joke in the class again. I told myself i wanna be low profile, and i think it'll never work nb.

actually

Actually, i think she's cute.

hahaha, that sounds creepy :x

A packed weekend

I had never had such a packed weekend.

All my schedule, sleeping, computer time is layed out so nice till i'm so surprised.

I enjoyed my weekend, with my new friends.

Some from malaysia, some from Singapore. All of us from all walks of life, it's really an experience.

We strived to be the best, and we will be the best :)