我觉得我总是活在自己的回忆里，人家常说爱得越深恨得越深。
我还在弥补我的过失，失就是失去的失。
每天读着man are from mars, and woman are from venus,没事没事就看看爱情偶像剧。
虽然一点都不真实，但是看着人家幸福的爱情里画上一个句点，总有一种甜蜜的感觉。
在路上走着走着，看着每个人幸幸福福的手牵着手，心里总会感到一点低落。
Everyone asked me, had i moved on?
Confidently i'll tell them yes i have, but deep within me. Had I?
How many times, there's a chance right infront of me and i let it slipped pass me again and again and again.
An invisible phobia, especially towards schooling girls, who's in Poly, or in Uni. Because I just dont feel secure, i dont feel secure at all. I'll have the mentality they'll be unhappy and meet some new guy and then just dump me aside.
What everyone sees are what i choose to show, what's actually inside me only i'll know. I may seem to be optimistic, cheerful, playful and enjoying myself. But how many people actually uncover that layer of cocoon and see what's beneath it? A defenseless naked caterpillar lying there helplessly. Thinking bout the stupid and lame breakup reasons back then, thinking what have i done wrong.
I cannot be like Edmond, one after another, moving on so swiftly.
I cannot be like Kun, so happily tgt with his love one.
I cannot be like Mingtai, happily enjoying his life of solitude.
This darkness, at times, is so dark that i lose my direction. I love my family, and all my best friends are like my brothers. All of you are part of my family, that is to say, if something happen to me you all wouldnt be here, i'm okie with it. But if something happen to you guys, i'll be there immediately.
When listening to my mp3 playlist, people always ask me, why i like to listen to emo songs. Actually i'm used to listenng to emo songs, to the extend that i had no idea i'm listening to emo songs. Some how i find that, it suits my mood. So am i right to say i'm feeling emo everyday? I doubt so right?
Some times people asked me, had i moved on?
My answers will be, "i still look at her facebook"
Some times, when i go to Hougang Mall, there'll be alot of fond memories. So i choose not to go there as much as possible. I use to study at Kovan everyday and i switched to Rivervale Plaza.
People also asked me, if given a 2nd chance what will i do?
I have no idea, joke of the day indeed.
Because anyone in a clear state of mind will say Hell No.
Some times people asked me why i like to sigh?
I'll say, i have no idea. Just some habit i develop after April Fool.
Some times people asked me, why i still have her photos in my hp. Why dont wanna delete?
i have no idea too, i dont look at it too. I just have it, and it just happened to be there.
I missed the feeling of having someone to be there when you need them, having the shoulder to lie on, knowing everything will be fine as long as the someone is there.
