Live in the past

The most scary thing in life is to live in the past, to think bout what happened in the past. Wondering how nice things will be if it turn out this way or remain as it is.

Living in the past blind us, giving us a misconception that things happening around us are bad or rather the past was so good that the present seems to be dull.

Why must we allow ourselves to indulge in things that can never be turned back upon?

If we live in the past, we're not giving ourselves a chance to look at what's happening around us. We must understand one thing, time doesnt wait for me, neither does it wait for you nor you. Even if we stopped now, refuse to move an inch, time will wait no one. Everything around you will con't to move, ur neighbour will con't to wake up at 7am to go to work, their son will catch the school bus at 710am, the maid will water the plant at 730am, Channel news asia will con't to broadcast morning news.

We must be strong, only if we're strong then we are independent. When we are independent, people will depend on us because we are reliable. Reliability gives people a sense of security. Nothing is easy, but there's nothing call impossible. The only impossible barrier is ourselves, if we conquer ourselves, we're ready to conquer anything.

Cheer up, be happy and be who you are. We are who we are and not what others want us to be.

When things go wrong

1. I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth.

2. I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord.

3. He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary.

4. He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried.

5. He descended into hell. On the third day he rose again.

6. He ascended into heaven and is seated at the right hand of the Father.

7. He will come again to judge the living and the dead.

8. I believe in the Holy Spirit,

9. the holy catholic Church, the communion of saints,

10. the forgiveness of sins,

11. the resurrection of the body,

12. and life everlasting.

Amen.

working

When i start working

i wanna buy a new TV for my parents

i wanna buy a new fridge for my parents

i wanna buy a new washing machine for my parents

i wanna bring my parents go for a movie

i wanna bring my parents for holiday

i wanna give my parents a better life. . . . . . .

Isnt that why i'm studying so hard for?

Yes, that's the reason why i'm studying so hard for, so that they will be proud of me :)

做好男人被人欺，我不想再做好男人了

exams coming

so excited, exams coming means exams gonna be over!!!

not yet started yet i cant wait for it to end hahaha, lionel wake up wake up!!! No obstacle this year, so by right i should do better than last yr right?

No one to affect you, so you can do it well this year. Focus focus, concentrate concentrate!!!

Mug everyday every night until May 7th then May 25th its good bye to education :)

hmmmm

to me, Edmond and Ming Tai are my best friends.

that means i'll do anything for them that's within my capability.

but do i weigh the same to them?

Dont know why, just thought of it.

Story of a star fish

Once a man was walking along a beach. The sun was shining and it was a beautiful day. Off in the distance he could see a person going back and forth between the surf's edge and and the beach. Back and forth this person went. As the man approached he could see that there were hundreds of starfish stranded on the sand as the result of the natural action of the tide.

The man was stuck by the the apparent futility of the task. There were far too many starfish. Many of them were sure to perish. As he approached the person continued the task of picking up starfish one by one and throwing them into the surf.

As he came up to the person he said, "You must be crazy. There are thousands of miles of beach covered with starfish. You can't possibly make a difference." The person looked at the man. He then stooped down and pick up one more starfish and threw it back into the ocean. He turned back to the man and said, "It sure made a difference to that one!"

some times

some times when some one said something and that some thing feels like some bull shit i cant help it but to point a middle finger to that some one.

It just feels so ridicules and stupid and dumb and doesnt make sense and no logic and practically asking for it.

It's like instinctively your middle finger will just stick out, some kinda sub conscious action that i had cultivated over the past few weeks.

Funny huh, actually no, i think instinctively that some one deserve my middle finger. One is an understatement 2 is still not enough how i wish i had 4

tuition

i had this feeling this year i'll be damn busy. Cuz of teaching, tuitioning and Uni studies.
Like all 3 things stack tgt and my schedule suddenly turns out to be very compact.

Initially i had only 2 tuition kids, 1 graduated so left with Shannon only. But Kenneth's parents intro another 2 more to me and now i turned out to have 3 tuition kids. Recently, there's a new kid in town who wants me to tuition too so now i had 4 plus Kenneth's dad gonna introduce the cousin to me. If i take on that i'll be having 5 tuition kids.

Which is pretty cool seriously!!!
Other than that, plus students from the school im teaching, i think i have quite a handful of them to teach.

Teaching this new kid in town, seriously. I'm speechless.. .. .. ..
He had tuition for last year and i had not idea what the hell is the damn tuition teacher doing. Must be one of those cheat money tutor again. But no, when i asked he told me she charged him very low. Like just wanna help him and stuff lidat. But doesnt look like helping seriously, if it's helping the grade wouldnt be like this already.

Sec 3 work, but im going through sec2 foundation with him. Picking up, which isnt very bad. Doing it slow and steady, hope i can rush the syllabus for him before his common test. Didnt wanna waste too much time on sec2 work.

As for Shannon, i think is i zui fang xin wan. Because she's very good alr, from B3 to A1 and her A1 is those A* grade. For the new Sec2 boy, there's some polishing to do, foundation for + - and multiplication of + and -. Gonna drill more of those on my next lessons.

Still, i think, if cant teach pls dont teach. But everyone has different priorities i guess.

Ring

My mum was packing my stuff and she found this ring where i hid it inside the Adidas paper bag. Come to think of it, i havent been wearing a ring for more than 8months ++
I looked at the ring, stoof there ponder for awhile, and went to my Gundam to retrieve this ring i had put there.

I couldnt rmb this rings belong to who, couldnt rmb the design and couldnt rmb when i worn it. I wear the ring, looked into the mirror. I totally forgot the feeling to have a ring. Funny? Weird? the feeling is so alien like i'm not use to it.

But after wearing the ring for awhile, i took it off. It was another sensation, i couldnt describe, like something is missing lol.

new year new hair new resolution

New year New Hair New Resolution
My 3months rule, never to keep a hairstyle for more than 3months. Currently revert back to spike, but it's different from the spike i use to have cuz this time round there's no fringe. So the front part is kinda like upward spiking.

(: What comes around goes around, what go up will eventually come down :)

New year new thing new news

hahahahahahahahahahaha~
I love the scent from the NEW YEAR!!!
I can sense that it's gonna be a good year, with good news :)

Wonderful christmas

Didnt manage to take finish all the presents, probably will do it again when i'm free :)
It was a wonderful christmas this year, able to do whatever i want and stuff lidat.

boredom

quite bored of Badminton alr, not because i lose interest in it.
Probably because i dont feel the kick anymore.
No one can satisfy my enormous appetite any longer.
My competitive nature has took over my rational mind.
I wanna play with strong opponent.

Guess that's me after all.
Same things goes for Magic, tennis & everything.

Christmas week

It's christmas week!!!
time to feel the christmas atmosphere and embrace this season of celebration.

Have fun and may god bless you :)

why?

Every time i felt that i'm good enough, or when i had the confident that i can play well. Then when i play with Edmond, everything just shuttered. All my confident kinda just vanished. I'll feel so demoralise, besides that i'm only left with 2 weeks. After this 2 weeks i doubt i'll be touching badminton that often anymore. By this 2 weeks, if i still couldnt reach the level i set for myself, I think even by 2010 nov 5th i cannot beat Edmond and will nv beat him.

So near yet so far

lazy to change the font lol

1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they're right & you'll need to shut up.

2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this'll mean half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the football before helping around the house.

3) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don’t do it!

4) A Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you're an idiot & she wonders why she is wasting her time standing here arguing with you about nothing. (Refer quickly to No 9 for the meaning of nothing.)

5) That’s Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. It means she wants to think long & hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

6) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you’re welcome. I want to add a clause here - This is true, unless she says ‘Thanks a lot’, which is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. (Do not say ‘you’re welcome’ - that will bring on No. 7).

7) Whatever: A woman’s way of saying; “F*** You!”

8) Dont worry, I've got it: Another dangerous statement. This'll be something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is doing it herself now. This will later result in a man asking ‘What’s wrong?’ For the woman’s response, refer to No. 4.

9) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. It means something & you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in “Fine”.

Picture speak a thousand words

Jacob to do list for Eugene

James Esprit towel for Ryan (hinting Ryan he needs a bath)

mini speaker (i was praying damn hard i get to get that)

touching dvd from ling to Jacob

my free beer to James

the only exchange among the whole group. Mark and Eugene

Prize presentation to myself cuz Ryan left early

Doris prezzie

My body shop spray XD

strawberry from Doris

Candy bar from Jo

sweet things come in threes, Jo and Tse wei

Ken present to Ang

My 3liter treat :)

ta ta ta ta

another 1 liter of beer

Group photo w/o ryan, Ken, Eugene and James

Playing with Doris's polarised camera

Singing truly madly deeply

Shagged

-the end-

3 words what the fuck

3words what the fuck!!!

25th May i had MA & FR!!! kao la.. .. ..

11th May i had PBF and MSM!!! sweee bo

7th May MM.. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. ..

wtf?

met up with stanley

Chit chat with stanley, catch up abit. Talk bout Australia my studies and everything. Walked around ION and Raffles city, shop around n meet his compulsive liar friend. Seriously buey tahan, the guy just kept lying n lying n lying. i seriously dunno whether to believe him anot.

Damn irritating

badminton with ww

Had MA in the afternoon, damn sian, everything he says also dunno what he's talking about. But actually not only me la, lol. Wanted to copy the answers, but Ben is copying so i probably i'll copy it during MSM.

After MA, pass my file to Cresencia and i went to Clementi to play with WeiWan. Initially see WeiWan play so funny, cuz he kept missing all the shuttles. But as the game proceed, slowly he starts unleashing his true self. The smack is damn fast & everything, felt so eager to be in the opposite team as him.

After the game, went to eat pig organ soup before going back to lecture. The whole lecture i was reading Low Kay **** "i believe you", read until the lecture ends. Ended up today nv really listen to lecture too. But i did copy and highlight some stuff.

On the way home, Cresencia Xinyi and i decided to play Badminton on the eve of christmas lol. Which isnt that bad an idea LOL.

Collected my racket

Today, i ate Mcspicy +cheese EVM, Bakuteh + rice, Kindle Bueno, Double CHeese burger, Ba Kwa, Sour Cream chips and a coffee Bun. It's totally omg-ly fattening.

Earlier in the afternoon went Queens to collect my racket from the Uncle. Love the Red string, like totally wow, probably cuz it's red. Now the entire racket looks red, metallic red surface and strawberry red strings. LOL, except for the blue handle. Probably gonna change to Black or light red. PROBABLY!!!

Wanted to buy lace, but i totally forgot bout it. Super forgetful, cuz i was late for lecture.

Reached lecture ard 4+, sat beside mong and as usual we chit chat the entire lesson until break then accompany him & tai to smoke. I just stood there and chit chat while blowing the smoke to the opposite direction.

After school didn't study with tai cuz i had make up MSM, but too bad i nv bring my notes so i was playing with my wi fi the entire 3hrs and couldn't take my eyes off the red string. Can't wait to try it out tml with WeiWan lol.

Sat & Sun

following Sat & Sun i spend my time playing badminton. i'm quite confident to say that i had officially improved. i'm quite sure in all aspect i had improved alot alot compared to Nov 5th.

Deep within me, i can feel my sports competitive nature gushing out. Instead of improving or getting better, i had other agenda in mind. The only thing on my mind is victory and victory and more victory, improving and getting better has became a norm to me.

I don't feel content anymore, like it's not enough. This is not enough, that is not enough. Everything is not enough. I wanna take part in tournament, i wanna go for competition, i wanna have more exposure. I wanna be in it and not only playing it.

Enough for now, lol.

lagging behind for MA

think i'm seirously lagging behind for MA. I see Ben and cresencia both like damn zai lidat, while i'm lost there. Actually not really lost ba, just that not confident in what i'm doing, i kept telling myself dont just copy the answers. Must try must try, but at the end of the day, i just dont know whether what i'm doing is correct anot or suddenly he called me i dont know how to answer how.

Kept doing and doing and doing, but still dunno what im doing. How come everyone like know how to do lidat while i'm like lost lidat. The feeling is fking sian seriously. MA MA, die die die.

After lesson went to play badminton at Clementi sports hall. I think my drop and net improved, def too. I brought Edmond's racket to change the grip, but ended up i couldnt find any sports shop at Clementi Sports hall. Quite dumb, but i think cuz i'm not familiar with the place.

Luckily i brought Edmond's racket cuz Eelin's racket's string snap. Damn zai, i used for so long and it didnt snap but she use one time it snapped lol. Muscle girl jiu shi muscle girl, the strength wu fa dang.

Probably, i'm gonna go re-string it with Nano 98 then at the same time consult the uncle what's the difference btw the lbs. Then im gonna string it at 22lbs, hope it doesnt snap since Nano98 is quite a good string hahaahhaha.

another week with Mong

Mong came to pick me up again, so are we bff or ffb?
i dont know, guess time will tell.

We just kept talking and talking and talking, gossip and gossip and gossip. Just like the old days when we're in sec school. Damn funny i guess, like de javu. Everything seems so familiar yet alien at the same time.

Lesson, Mong and i just kept talking. Only stopped when the lecturer asked us to take down examples or asking us to try questions. Other times we're just scrutinising at every single person, talking and laughing at them.

After lesson Mong gave tai & i a lift to RP to study. Finally i starts to know what i'm doing, but every questions i tried, all i got wrong. What the hell lol.

So fri shld i follow Mong to zouk & sat to St James? hmmmm, pending ba lol.

Xinyi's birthday

Celebratee Xinyi's birthday at Ajisen. Abit yao siu cuz i had to wake up early in the morning. Ended up i was 30min late, nothing new i know lol. But Xinyi and Alex was as late as me. Mavis and Eelin reached much earlier than us and they bought a strawberry shortcake for Xinyi.

Alex and I shared a bowl of noodle, I upsized it and add soup.
Mavis upsized hers and she couldnt finish it -.-
Eelin ordered hers and she dont like the ingredient -.-
So actually, Mavis and Eelin can share 1 bowl because Eelin dont eat the ingredient, she can just eat the noodle and drink the soup while Mavis can eat all the ingredient while she still gets to eat the noodle and drink soup.
This is allocative efficiency XD

After breakfast/lunch, went to Cine to check out slots for Christmas Carol, but suey suey the movie is either finished or cine doesnt film it. Sian xia, travelled all the way there but don't have. So walked around Cine then i went to take a look at shoes and saw this Nike Shuttle shoes that cost $99 dollars, quite giam but i didnt buy cuz it isnt red.

Jalan jalan all the way to Taka. I saw this Adidas indoor shoe, cost $89.90. Super like the colour but too bad i think it 's quite ex lol. Jalan some more to Far East, Mavis shop for presents for Yan heng while we just walked around looking at Xinyi's Japanese shuai ge who arent shuai at all.

Mavis and Xinyi left at 6pm while Alex, Eelin & i went to queensway to jalan jalan. Saw the NIke shoes selling at $84 and the Adidas show selling for $69. Seriously it's so much cheaper lo, but since my income is ard $99 i bought this Asics shoe for $95. The original price is $119 lol. Shiok :x

Later at night had supper with Edmond and tai, started talking bout alot of english drama which i had no time watching. Maybe i'll start watching after my Zhong Ji 3an Guo :)

Steamboat & pubbing

Went to had steamboat with Ang & Karris after checking out the badminton stuff. Didnt eat much, cuz they kept eating the things i took. By the time i wanna eat more, they say it's time to leave and i didnt eat much. Sigh~

Maybe i shall return for more steamboat some other time, lol. Quite sian, cuz i really wanna eat alot of meat and ended up didnt eat much.

After steamboat we went to play the new Hyper Bishi Bishi. Damn fun la, and i think it's easier than the older version. Cuz i spend 1 credit and i played until stage 20, total there's 22 stage i think ,couldnt really rmb. While they spend $10 ++ lol.

Later at night, we went TCC to nuan abit before going to one of the KTV pub to drink and relax.

Chit chat and catch up abit with Karris, hopefully next year i'll have enough money to go Australia and visit her since accommodation and everything will be done by her. Like why not right, hope Ang can make it too then we can go tgt :)

re-string my racket

I went Queensway to re-string my racket with nanogy 98@22lbs.
Dont know whether is it the right thing to do, cuz wasnt very sure what kinda tension do I want. But ended up i just string it at 22lbs.
By right had lotsa questions to ask the uncle wan, but i couldnt rmb what i wanna ask.

Purchase, paid and everything. Change grip for Wu, a purple colour grip hope he likes it cuz i think it goes well with his racket.

Wanted to buy the red lace, but i wanna go home to double check whether is there any extra stock before buying. Checked out the shuttle, but didnt know which one i should buy. Ended up didnt buy any and went to Bras Basah to take a look at Badminton stuff again.

Monday Blue

Stayed at home to wait for my package, Ben and Charmaine came over to my place and studied. Didnt study much cuz Charmaine was playing with her new Iphone while i was kinda using the comp and when Ben came over he was very sleepy or rather my house wasn't very conducive.

After awhile, we accompanied Laureen to Kovan. She went to her dance class and we 'studied' for another few hours and dinner at Kovan. The tsu cha there is good, i like the fish head pot. Next time gonna bring my parents there :)

1month duel

Nuan at home the whole afternoon watching Zhong Ji 3an Guo. By right wanted to leave my house at 4.30pm to kovan to get my shoes. But somehow i'm just too lazy, lazy to travel to kovan then go to Anchorvale for Badminton.

Left home around 5.30 ended up still late, reached ard 615. Couldnt believed it, Anchorvale is so damn near yet it took 45min to reach there from my house. When i cycled it took around 10mins plus plus. See the difference!!!

Edmond was there alr, Tai was late. So i stroke with Edmond first, then until tai came then we started playing 2v2.

At around 7.30, Edmond and i played 1v1. Some how i felt it's still not good enough, i think he still put water. Although i win by a small margin, i don't feel like i won. Guess im going to train abit more so he can take me seriously.

Slowly but surely, i'm improving. My hunger for victory will not end here, my competitive nature will soon over take my hunger for victory. In my mind, Edmond is more than what i had played with ytd.

Looking forward to Dec 20th