sian

i felt so guilty, that i really feel like crying.

am i too emotional?

Lady luck

when is my lady luck gonna shine upon me again?
everything's going against me
suddenly feel so lost again
one blow after another, even if i'm a superman
i couldnt get over the mental torment.

once again, i'm feeling so tired. . .
so so so tired. . . . . .
exam stress, r/s stress, family stress.

where is my 背后的女人

sigh

sorry dad, as a son, i betrayed ur trust.
i failed u so badly, it's even worst than the break up.
I felt so guilty, sigh. . . .

to hongwei

ytd, was really the first time i hear u speaking ur mind out.
My first time meaning, openly voiced it out w/o me asking ur opinion.
maybe a few other occasion, just that i couldnt recall.
though just a sentence, but at least i know how u think & feel bout certain things.
"我不喜欢那些说一套，做一套的人”
I dont know whether issit 我想太多
but when u said that, i can see ur emotion & rage towards this kinda people.

Maybe like Wu said, just to make me feel better.
But suey suey of all people bump into tai
then if she would have said hello to tai, tai might not have told me
until probably after my exam.

I just woke up, lol.

studying@Mac on sat

studying@Mac with Hongwei and Edmond again.
Both of them were nuan-ing while i study.
Edmond is lapping, and hw is reader digesting.

I brought my Adam Khoo for him to read, but he didnt wanna read.
I think it was a very motivational book, but nvm.
Beauty lies in the eye of the beholder, ahahahaha.

I was damn damn damn bloody productive today.
The thing i did today, is something i'll take 2 days to accomplish.
I feel so damn proud of myself, lol!!!!
Cam whoring abit here and there, lol =x

Guess i can throw pbf aside for now, focus on my IS & Micro.
See how things go i guess, tml gonna study for Micro.
Night will be Happy mother's day-ing

Basketball@tampines

not very shiok, but i can feel myself aging.
my bones are getting old, especially my elbow and knee.
Think i'm gonna get alot of problem when i grow old.

Everytime i released the ball, i can feel my elbow breaking apart.
When ever i steal some one's ball, my elbow hurts.
Layup was okie, but attempting basket was really sad.
I couldnt keep up the pace, it's really very sad.

Guess i'm joining the team, it will do me good too.
NTU & NUS, wait for me!!!

i'm the fisherman

I caught the fish faster than i expected.
it was truly hilarious, lol.

common joke

TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America.
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America?
CLASS: Maria.
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TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.
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TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.
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TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.
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TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE: Me!
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TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty?
GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
_______________________________________

TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'
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TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.
______________________________________

TEACHER: Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON: No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.
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TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, sir. It's the same dog.
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TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher

studying@Mac

study@Mac alone.
Hongwei and Edmond came over to nuan with me.
Productive anot, hard to tell.
But at least i sorta get my work done

But Edmond's lappy is really distracting, lol.
Not like i wanna use la, but i kept kpo-ing.
Looking at what he's doing, so kinda wasted alot of time there.

Especially when Mingtai login msn, i got the urge to talk to him too.
ahahahaha, damn jia lat xia.

Seriously cant wait to go baking lesson, the reason is because.
ahem ahem ahem, wt u'll know =x

studying@home

tried studying at home, but it's proven
super unproductive.
so yap, gave up, i think it's better to study outside or at some one's place.

i'll keep looking at my comp, keep walking around my house.
if some one msn me, i'll reply and chat with them for awhile.
return to my work, then when they msn me again, i'll reply them again.

So conclusion: Lionel can never study@home

tae yang - look only at me

need my daily dosage on internet before i can proceed to studying.
but shall limit it to half an hour.
today i'm gonna try studying at home, cuz Ben inspired me.

Activities after exam

i'm praying damn hard to faster get over and done with.
List of activities waiting for me after exam.

- Ballroom dancing
- hip hop III
- spanish class
- korean class
- jap class
- cooking class
- baking class
- biking session
- diving session

some things i couldnt do, and now i'm free to DO!!!!!

another thing i being pondering whether to add in
that is, i decided not to seek for another r/s for the time being.
people get into a r/s, doesnt mean i shld get into another r/s too.

there's few types of people, one of which is those must be constantly in love, and another type that can wait for the right opportunity.
Why rushed into things when I can enjoy now?
I dont know what you told ur friends to make me look bad, cuz it doesnt matter to me anymore. So whatever i told my friends bout you, is my own private thingy.
Take it or leave it, not happy, dont read.
i like to bitch, but i dont make up stories =)

the world is construct in a way that it can meet everyone's need, but not a person's greed.
the person refers to YOU =)
the you is for those who feels guilty conscious, if anyone doesnt feels anything, then this sentence wasnt meant for you.

平时不做亏心事，半夜不怕鬼敲门

studying@Ben's place

Ben's house had all the good food.
Last night was shepherd pie
today was cinnamon bread + carbonara.
i'm like gosh, please stop me!!!
But one good news!!!!

I lost 3kg over the month, ahahahaha!!!!
thanks to singlehood i guess, lol.
I think i made Ben's mum's night.
I said, "hi sister" instead of "hi auntie"
i dont know whether did i sound rude or not
but i think she's quite happy, lol.

Start of a new subject, need some time to adjust.
So not very productive overall, hope tml will be a better day.
if not i dont think i'm anywhere near 2nd upper, zZz.
Wasted my whole bloody april away, sigh.

Wolverine

supposed to be mugging for my MicroEcons
instead went to watch Wovlerine.
the show was damn nice, but the guy sat beside me was damn spoiler

He smells like he just smoke, and it smells like some Marlboro heavy pack.
Nvm, when the smell goes away, he smells like he pee on his pants
nvm too, the pee smell stays, but he was snoring away.
nvm again, snoring away, his hp rang, non silent mode, rang for 1min?
nvm again, he didnt reject the call, he stare at it for another 1min?
nvm, after he stare for 1min, he decided to walk out and blocked half my view.

i'm like totally wtf?
Smell like some heavy pack smoker, smell like pee, snore during the movie, walking up and down, always landed on me.
I could have kicked him, but thinking he might be 32 i choose not to do anything.
What if he decided to pee on me!!!

tuition with Shannon

gradually, tuition with Shannon becomes more and more like chit chatting session more than tuition session.
We just talk and talk and talk thru out the whole 2hr.
productive tuitioning hours is less than an hour.\

But i think, as long as we get our work done it's fine.
But still, it just doesnt feel right, lol.
Probably cuz she's so much younger than me.
but at the same time, i feel so young too, lol.

Realised my photos decreased, sorta knows why, but just couldnt be bothered to check.
Cuz if i really wanna check, i had to click on her profile.
Which is quite, yuck? lol

Big bang - lies

Studying@Ben's place

every time i study@Ben's place
there's always some entertainment before i start settling down.
gosh la, his family is damn funny la.
How i wish i had siblings like his
or maybe if i had a gf, my gf interact as much as his gf, that will be cool man.

But partly cuz his gf is very interactive
looking at the way she interact with the mother & the sister
i'm like totally wow, envious to the max man.

Yesterday was poking fun of the mum's facebook account.
Today, the gf & the mother were competing la.
It was super damn funny.
the sister was laughing her arse off at the front
Being a guest, i was laughing my arse off behind the sister.

But the gf caught me laughing, so yap, lol.
Wasnt very discreet i can say.
But they were very entertaining, especially the mum.
She was so sad when i called her auntie today, lol.

As usual, first half was productive.
2nd half was chit chatting all the way.

Study@Yishun Library

there's this Cj girl approach me
she was sitting infront of me, then she started asking me GP AQ question.
i'm like wtf? of all people you pick the wrong guy man.
She asked me, "what does this 'your generation' means?"
I'm like, "hmmmmm, okie, this brings back memories."

So i started to smoke her by saying, "your generation is depends on how you interpret it. Whether do you wanna give the examiner a wider point of view of you would love to narrow your point of view by giving an explicit explanation. It doesnt really matter how you bring across your idea, but is whether do you have strong examples to support your thesis."

next,
her: so u're from Cj right?
me: yap, i'm from Cj.
her: have you graduated?
me: yap, few years ago.
her: how come u're still wearing Cj shirt?
me: it feels comfortable, since i bought it, why not just wear it, value for money. This is being economical, the more i wear, the lower the cost of purchase.
her: haha, what about the jacket?
me: dont waste it, since i bought it i must fully utilise it too.
her: so you stayed around here?
me: not really, but relatively near(getting abit impatient)

abit of blah & blah here & there, i couldnt take it, i told her i need to study.

Walking alone in Orchard

walking alone in Orchard
Initially the mood was okie
but as i walk, the more i think
the more i think, the further my mind drifted.

Kinda sucky this way, cuz it's unlimited thoughts
i can think of anything and everything.
But the worst thing is, i'm thinking it feels so lonely walking in Orchard alone.
The more i think, the more emo i felt.
Yap, sucky like what i said.

Cut my hair, the hair dresser sorta brighten my evening
She kept talking and talking and talking.
a 10min hair cut, took around 45mins.
Dont even know what were we chatting bout.
But at least it made me felt better.

conversation with Ben's gf

hmmm, it was quite a long conversation.
we sorta chatted for an hour plus plus close to 2.
So technically i didnt really study much

She's giving me too much hope from a girl's pov.
but whatever she said doesnt mean she isnt making any sense.
She makes so much sense that i had doubt for myself.
She kept asking me to go, to go, to go.
Dont let the chance slipped.

But my pov is that, i wanna cool down since my r/s just ended.
Couldnt exactly proceed to a new one in such a short time, unlike someone else.
Friends are encouraging me to enjoy singlehood and dont rush into things, unlike someone else who's all fake and hypocritical.

Facing a dilemma, all i can say it let time decides everything.
If, by chance, it slipped past, there's nothing i can do.
If, by chance, things turned out fine, of course i'm more than happy.
Right now, all i can think of is my exams.
Need to study hard to at least pass this year.

Whenever some one talked to me bout my r/s.
All the spark will get re-ignited.
Of course i couldn't care less, she sucks anyway, lol.

Information overload

studied too much today
information overload
or probably i had alot of things on my mind.

couldnt really focus when i'm at Ben's place.
My mind was wandering around.
I kept dazing and staring at the carpark, looking at my car.

But luckily i studied for 5hrs plus in the afternoon.
So wasnt that bad afterall.

Last night, chit chat with Ben.
Today, chit chat with Ben's gf + his sister was listening to our conversation.
Talk bout lotsa things, mainly bout r/s.
The gf said the exact same thing as Ang.

Seriously, i felt totally like Mr S man, lol.
Like last time, how people thought Mr S is the bad guy.
But i wasn't affected by it, in fact i wanna laugh my arse off.
I started to think that, there's nothing wrong with Mr S at all.
I thought i use to be a hero, but now i feel more like a villain.
Even till today, i still believe she cheated :)

Nvm, it's history, i could care less bout it.
Like my dad said, what happened to me, can happen to anyone else.
The character is lidat, it is lidat.
The only thing i wanted to do is to delete every photos containing the both of us.

Tml gonna be a productive day, hope i dont sink any deeper.
If i sink any deeper, i'll be super OMANA!!!!

Ben's place

chit chat with Ben for 15mins or so.
Found out that he knows bout my stuff
Thanks lovely Charmaine for being so sensitive, to ask Ben to not ask me anything.
Cuz i can picture Ben asking me lame and stupid question during lectures.

Seriously, after chatting with Ben, felt so much better man.
The few of them, all T31 peoples.
They are damn good man, Ang has theory, Ben has his reasoning, Baoli has her experience and Rach has almost everything there.
Listening to them, i felt very enlighten, seriously.

Ben is damn good cuz, he's damn sharp with his words and thinking.
The way he reasons, like almost close to perfection.
Btw, i hate to reason with Ben, he can twist logical stuff into illogical stuff.
This i believes all of you who shares the same lecture as him will know.
But when comes to nonsense, i believed we're on par =)

1st half was damn productive, 2nd half was facebook applicationing
Shagged, tml still need to go Hbf for lunch.
Need to wake up early, yawn yawn.

Dinner@XO fish soup

Meet up with my friend for dinner
whole of Yishun had their thermometer sold out
like wow, from Watson to Guardian to Cold storage.
Every where sold out, quite exaggerating but yap, epidemic is here.
The h1n1 flu, i got scan by the librarian thrice.

We went to the foodcourt, but all stalls are closed.
Had our dinner@Xo fish soup some where around Yishun.
Sat there, chit chat for awhile until quite late.
I thought i missed my last bus, but luckily i didnt.
Supposed to meet Ben at 1030, but i'm still at Yishun.

Reached home around 1130, drove down to Ben's place.

studying@Yishun

studying at yishun
actually i dont think i would have woke up so early if not for some one's morning call(sms)
normally i sleep like a log, but that sms really woke me up man.

studied at Yishun library, seriously very quiet and very nice to study.
This starts my first day of mugging after all the stupid bull shit that happened around me.
Whole of april practically didnt study at all.
Now had to catch up and pace myself all the way till exam.
Can feel the sense of urgency coming up man.

I really hate to say this, but seriously, that ***** really screw up my exams.
But yap, ups and downs in life, no one but myself to blame.
Studied for 6hrs@Yishun library
alot of fun sightings, stressful old woman sitting infront of me
if not it's some very expressive ang moh sitting infront of me.

really weird people, but was fun.

Guess what?

guess what?
it's a small world, that's all :)

omg

lol, i'm so gonna learn korean & Japanese during the hols.
all the things i couldnt learn due to some personal problem
can pick up all of it after exam!!!
couldnt wait for exam to end!!!

Big band lies

omg, this song is heavenly nice
it makes me wanna dance
i'm so craving to dance, i cant wait to dance man!!!!
I cant survive without dancing~!

Big Bang LIES!!!!
it's damn damn damn nice, according to Baoli, will be fucking nice.

this is part of the lyrics, enjoyed =)

i'll be right there
i'm so sorry girl i love you i just can't lie
oh i was so wrong i can't live without'cha
(please listen to me!)
i'm so sorry girl i love you now i realize
shoulda never let'cha go away -
cuz now my life don't seem right
i'm so sorry girl i love you i just can't lie
i'm so sorry... girl i love you...
i'm so sorry girl i love you now i see my...
thinkin' was all a big mistake it
makes me cry to this day

Korean craze

gosh, my Korean craze is back again lol.
keep surfing youtube on all the Korean groups.
this time not only girls band, i'm looking at boy band too.
Their dance steps are totally gorgeous, so into it.
Couldnt wait to learn Hip hop III or maybe breaking~!!!!

Korean are damn bloody good man
when their songs are top
they will start coming out Nobody remixed,
after that, Nobody ballad
follow by, Nobody disco.

For Big Bang, they got their lies, lies remixed, lies slow, lies orchestrate.
Damnit man, but it's all so nice. LOL

oooooh

Okie, i understood why issit may 1st alr.
shit man, should have refrain myself from viewing.
I thought one last peep, there's no harm.
Damnit, hahahaha.
okie, off to bed.
yawn yawn
night night all

wt to me

Weiting feels that i got split personality and starts to think that i'm dangerous.
she feels that i'm damn scary and shld go visit a doctor soon.
She asked me, so which personality is she chatting to today?

i guess, find one day i shall go visit Dr Chen

But i consulted Dr Lim at night
Dr Lim said i'm perfectly fine, but Dr Lim is a vet, yawn.