freaking miss PMU

All I can say is i freaking miss PMU Team Alpha.

I miss all the damn fun we had when we were in the unit
I miss all the bitching session we had after shift
I miss all the after shift Jalan Kayu we had
I miss all the Ban Luck session
I miss the Rambo session we had in the room
I miss the times when we stand strong tgt as a team
I miss us patrolling together as a team
I miss the O.E times
I miss the different GL style of working

All in all I Miss PMU Team ALPHA!!!

Quote from Eragon

‎"Give men your ear, but not your heart. Show respect for those in power, but don't follow blindly. Judge with logic and reason, but comment not. Consider none your superior, whatever their rank or station in life is. Hold fast to your beliefs and others will listen"

Wise words ain't it?

Give men your ear, but not your heart. Many a times when we listen to other people and we became sympathetic. When we became sympathetic we do not know where to draw the line. Our judgement waver, we started to feel for them. Of course it isn't something wrong, but eventually we had to practise moderation. Never let someone make use of you because we sympathies them.

Show respect for those in power, but don't follow blindly. We may not be as experience as others, but we are given the ability to judge whether is this right or is this wrong. Never allow ourselves to be clouded by what they say, we are given the ability to decipher, to analyse so do it.

Wise words hold significant meaning to it, in life whatever you do we must not regret. We must learn to look forward and grow. Let the past be an experience.

Into Photography

Recently, I got quite addicted into Photography and i bought a new camera. A DSLR, basic lens kit. Kinda regret getting the basic lens kit thou, that point of time when i bought i thought to myself "probably i shall just learn a lil bit before getting a better one" but after i had used it for a month, the spects totally couldnt fulfilled me.

I wanted something more, something better, something that can fits my expectation. But well, i'll just make do with this and get a new lens when the time comes and i doubt i can sell of this since it's really basic kit. Nevertheless i'll just do the best of my ability with this.

City Of Athens

Athens is a pretty city by itself, i missed the places pretty much. I love the skies, the scenery & the relax lifestyles over there. Everywhere is rocks & it will be rather boring if we were just walking around without a guide. Hence it will be more worth while with a guide or walking radio to explain every single building and rocks & the meaning behind every one of them.

It is a place for tourism, as most of us know, they have the famous Greek Mythology & various temple for God. We know of Zeus, Poseidon & Hades. Personally, I didnt visit the temple of Poseidon & hades.

The Greek Acropolis is the best known Acropolis in the world. But most of the buildings are either damaged during war or from depreciation. Hahaha, depreciation, what a word to use.

Last but not least, I went to the temple of Zeus and this is the only pillage left and the rest of the remains were destroyed by floods and landslide. Hence this is what remains of the Zeus temple where the ancient Greek use to worship The God, Zeus.

Among the roadside in Athens, we can see the Blue Eye everywhere. It has various name, some call it the Owl Eye, some called it the Evil Eye. But whatever the name is, it's supposed to ward off evil spirits. As this was started from the Ancient Greek, now it is commonly seen in Middle East country as well.

In Turkey, we can see some of their Aircraft using the Evil Eye as their Logo.

Of course there's also the Olympic stadium, but we have to pay quite an amount of Euro if we wanna go in hence i decided not to pay. Because it's only a walk around the stadium of the very first Olympic.

Also Satorini, sadly, it was 70% closed during Winter season and I didnt get to go. What for go to a place if it's 70% closed. People told me, places like this shld go with your love ones, so so so so so so so, im gonna reserve it for my loved ones ;)

sentimental

to others it might be stupid, but to me it has a certain sentimental value in it.

Sometimes, maybe leaving out the lil details everyone will be better off aint it?

But some times, isnt that small lil details that made each other special & unique?

If privileges are meant for everyone, then what's so special between her & her or what makes thing different between one another?

It is like saying I Love you to ur love ones, we dont go saying i love you to every other people because it is meant for our special half or people who we adore.

If today

If today, we have a block of resident asking for govt funding and support to meet their daily need.
Be it a small amount of $1
Everyday, how much of millions will be pumped into helping these residents to meet their daily needs?
That's beside the point, where is this money going to come from?
2ndly, do you think the reserve will have enough to spare?
If the reserves doesnt, where will the money be coming from?

If we complain the GST is too high, and we're going to lower it. Where is the equilibrium?
If we reduce one, we definitely am going to increase another. Aren't we?
If not, where will the funding be coming from?

I believe the housing in Singapore is getting sky high. If TODAY, we are going to reduce the price of housing. Your flat who's networth is 300k, will be reduced to 200k. Are we satisfied? Or are we selfish?
Or do we only allow price reduction for others and not ours.

How confident are we going to allow a sale rep, a housing agent to run for you?
What's the nature of their job, may i ask?
Their job is to convince, to sell, to persuade, to stir up. That's their quality, but when it comes to situation awareness, is 'talking only' going to bring us far?

If we wanna talk about problem, we wanna complain, we wanna whine, we wanna give promises. Anyone can run for election. The problem is, where's the substance may I ask?

What are the conviction?

this job

Getting accustom to this job, my work getting better. Every other day i'll be complimented, i'll be praised, most of them says i need minimal supervision which is good i guess. Because that means they trust that i can do my job without having any supervision.

I like my job, and i hope i can stay long in this job. Although every single day it's a repetition, well, i guess every other job it's also repetition so i dont see why people wants to compare and planning to quit and at the end of the day wanting to come back.

But well, isnt life full of irony anyway.

People always thought i'm a social bee, but after i gotten in then only i realised i'm not as sociable as i thought. Like what people says, a mountain higher than another. I'm not the kinda person who can break the ice instantaneously, i need some time to let it go before i can break the ice. Which isn't all that bad la, but a matter of fact i envy thought who can social w/o the need to break any ice. Probably as time goes by i'll learn the art of it, but now i'm new, i'll probably stick to low profile.

Been high profile aint very good, because the higher u climb, the easier u becomes a target. I'll just sticked to my mediocre life, workaholic attitude and take pride in my work.

Travelling around the world

As i start to travel around the world, i start to appreciate how Singapore as it is. I start to understand how some of our systems work, i start to understand why is some of the rulings necessary.

In some countries, can you imagine yourself walking around at night and the next moment what u're gonna get is some one raping you or some one robbing you or some crazy guy from next door tried to shoot u down with his pistol who he just bought yeseterday.
Some places, even when u're walking ard in the day, you have so many people staring at you, sitting by the roadside eying you as you walked pass them. The next moment you realised, there's a group of people following behind u and who knows what's gonna happen next.
Or places where u take a simple public transport and the next thing u know u've been robbed. Or u put ur wallet on the table, and tada the waiter/waitress who's a part-time pickpocket just koped ur wallet.
The lady who's carrying a baby standing next to you can be a very professional pickpocket who tries to distract u using her baby. Next,

We always complaint that traffic jam, this expressway jam, that expressway jam but when we go to countries without proper road system, their road is not only jam but also dangerous. Any time you might get knocked down, any time another car will just cut out without checking their blind spots, and the next thing you see is an accident right infront of you. I experience this first hand!!!

MRT is always crowded, we have people squeezing, we have people rushing in, we have people not giving way. But there's places where people grab each other, pull each other, push each other to get into the MRT. What i meant by pull push grab, i really meant brute force. Not the usual, i push u lightly, u push me lightly and we squeeze in together. Or the next moment you found ur belongings all got stolen!!! Follow by,

In a country where English isn't their first language, and the next thing u know u're lost and you have no idea how to go back to the hotel. Tried asking direction on the road, either nobody is friendly enough to help you out, or discrimination plays a part, or probably we look like some pickpocket in action who's trying to distract them and the next thing we're so gonna rob them.

Seriously, i appreciate Singapore as it is and life in Singapore. I seriously do.. .. ..

Independent

I believe we're both very independent being.
We have been single for close to 2years, we grew mature over this 2years.
People always say that r/s makes you distant from ur friends, distant from ur family, distant from everybody but just the 2 of us.

Over this 2years, i tried to connect back to the friends i had lost during my r/s years. It's hard work, definitely hard work.
Some friends welcome u back with open arms, but some just felt disconnected.
I managed to get back my social life, i'm single, i'm free, i can go out with everyone i like, whoever i like and anybody i want.

I went out with my parents whenever i'm free, we had dinners, we chit chat, we talk more. I learn to treasure my family more than anything.

Over this few years, i grew up, i'm matured, in terms of mentally and emotionally. I prioritsed, i know my goal, i know what i wanna do, i know what i should do and what i shouldnt do.
I learn to plan, and not plan to fail.
I learn that if i cant do small things, how can i accomplish bigger things.

After all this years, i finally got into another r/s. I learn to balance my career, friends, family and her. She's pretty close to my parents, they hang out, they eat and they meet up even when i'm oversea. I'm glad that she can connect with my parents.

I brought her to meet some of my friends, thou not all yet. I'm happy that my friends and her click along well, and not with black face or walked away, shouted in the middle of a dinner or conversation.

When we're alone, we missed each other's companion, when we're tgt we enjoy what we are doing.
We had plans, we want to start a family, we want to stay together.

We went to look for HDB, look for EC, consult housing agents and left our names for balloting.

When she's alone, she's very independent. She do house hold chores, she do groceries, she washed her clothings, cooked dinner.
But whenever i'm around, i'll make it a point to fix something for her to eat. I'll cook breakfast and dinner, tried different recipe i have learned over the years.

At the same time i'm realising my goal as a house husband.

Be it like what other says this is our honeymoon period, to me honeymoon period or not, as long as one is willing to put in effort, the honeymoon period will last till forever. But if it's just a mask, once it's peeled off everything changes.

One thing i learn is to not expect, if we expect, we plan to fail. But if we let things flow by naturally and do our part for this r/s, everything will be fine.
Expectation is overrated, it's a pressure, an invisible pressure. Do things because you wanna do it, not to ask for returns. If we have a motive for everything, life will be miserable.

I learn to treasure things over the years.
Now i learn to treasure my family, they were with me during good and bad times.
I treasure my friends, as i have alr lose one, i dont wanna lose the others. It was so sad and miserable, years of friendship gone in a split seconds.
Now I have a partner, i'll do my best because she's doing her best too.

Everyday, as i'm flying everywhere.
These are the people who's always in my mind, that i couldnt forget.

They are, My dad & mum, Daphnee, Edmond and Mingtai & Hongwei, Renkun & Tesmmon, Juliana & WeiWan, Eric Gwee from my Batch. Also Ben Yeo & charm.

Physically we're both very independent, but emotionally, we're very dependent of each other. Whenever we're in SG, we spent most of the time together. I love talking to her, especially when we talk, we talk about everything.
I feel that communication is very impt, if we communicate, we know more about each other. As we know more about each other, we learn our difference and we make a difference in each other's life.
Differences are inevitable, but it's how we adapt to it. Nobody is 100% similar, all these takes effort. This is what i believe and learn over the past years.

Some times think about it, even our mum & dad grew up with us for 20 over years and we still quarrel. What is a few years and months of r/s?

Life is an everlasting experience, it's a non stop learning curve.
It is not only about education, it is also about people managing.
IQ is impt, same goes for EQ.

Pure intelligent brings u nowhere if you have no EQ. At the end of the day, u're high and mighty. But when we look behind ourselves, we start to realise we're all alone up there.
We start to ponder whether people ard us are real friends or hypocrites?
If one day when we fall, will they be by our side?
A question for you to think, also for me to ponder.

At the end of the day, it's friendship & kinship that will accompany us till the end.

I cant wait for my annual leaves, because i'll be going oversea with her.
Hope everything turns out well.

i miss him

some times i really miss Hong Wei, i miss the times the 4 of us hang out.

I miss the time we all go out for supper and joke.
I miss the time he hide in one corner while we disturb him
I miss the time we all go Genting
I miss the time we go JB and have fun

I smsed him happy b'day, but he didnt reply me
I smsed him to go out with Brandon Lee but he didnt wanna join us

Will he sms me Happy B'day this year?
Or will he wouldnt sms me like last year?
If i get married, he's definitely gonna be my bestman, or will he not?
haiiii

Jealousy

Jealousy is a very strong emotion, an emotion that will send resentment hatred and every negative actions/feelings towards another person.

I don't see what's there to be jealous about, everyone has their fair share of pie everyone has their ups and downs. Now maybe good for one but that doesnt mean in the future it will be as good.

Jealousy exists btw friends, btw lovers and rivels, btw colleagues. But seriously, the stupidest type of jealousy is btw friends. Especially when someone treats you genuine yet you feel resentment against him, is it fair for the other? Maybe i'm too idealistic, or perhaps the other is childish.

Grow up, grow up!!!
This is something kids will do, we're mature adults alr.

Do not let your ego devour you, devour your ego and eat humble pie.

first month

First month into flying, so far so good everything's alright. Had 3 check reports in less than a month, surprised yet relief because i might not be getting any soon.

This is also the first time piggy and i ain't gonna meet each other for more than 4days. Our first long haul, which is 8days and a 11days coming up during Nov period. I can predict i'm so gonna miss her like hell but there's nothing we can do. Adapt and have complete faith in each other and nothing will go wrong :)

Come to think of it, we're very blessed. We get to meet 13days outta 30days, aint that good enough? I think it's good enough. Better than some people who meet only once or twice a month or once or twice a year.

I hate it when i see her off, and she gave me that she bu de's face. Makes my heartache but well well, everything's going to be alright. Thou i didnt show her that face, but my dad told her how crazy i am when i'm alone at home. Thanks ar Dad!!!

The next time i'll meet her will be the 3rd of Dec, and i'm following her back to Muar for afew days. Time to visit the family again, didnt contact with them much, so its time to do some PR.

I love the pace like now, everything relax. Don't have to go on super long haul, gets to stay at SG most of the time. Visit the culture of other countries, this is life. But few years down the road, we'll nv know. Live for now, live for the future, enjoy life while we can.

not sleeping well

for 2days I havent been sleeping well, either i couldnt fall asleep, if not i'll wake up every hour interval. If not i'll flip around my bed for 30mins (i supposed) before i can fall asleep.

Guess i'm having sleeping disorder, but thankfully it's not insomnia. Last night i even dreamt that i was called up to Auckland, that's like so argh!!!

Auckland

She's gonna be at Auckland for 4days, leaving me alone in SG for 4days again. But i kinda utilise my time by folding origamis, looking thru recipe and see what i can cook for her and fold for her.

After i got together with her, i no longer feel like pubbing, no longer feels like drinking, no longer feels like putting on my earring. Don't have the urge to K at all, to sum things up, i felt like i'm becoming more and more like a househusband.

When i said househusband i meant househusband, been clearing my room, my living room, my kitchen everyday whenever i got time. I can say, it's becoming pretty neat (i think)

When i do something for her, i just felt like doing it for her. Not because i want her to appreciate it, i just felt like doing it. Some times, most people do things because they want others to appreciate it, they want others to know they do it. Hence they will keep repeating what they have done.

Maybe that's what people deemed as giving unconditionally.

Key

In a blink of an eye, u're gone with the wind. Blown to a land far far away, leaving only your scent for me to remember.

Australia ar Australia

Every time i go to Australia i'll feel like puking if not i'll feel nausea. The feeling of nausea totally sucks man especially when u wanna puke but u couldnt puke.

The other time when i went Melbourne, i went Merlion-ing for an hour and luckily this time round to Sydney i didnt go Merlion.

By the time i reached Sydney i totally had no mood for anything. Checked in the hotel, went to nearby mall to get myself a Macdonald then nua in my room chatted with Piggy until i dozed off.

Next morning, i went for Hungry Jack(burger king), they had free refilled & thats the key point. Plus one thing i noticed, every where they had this burger called Angus and i thought it was the almighty Japanese beef until i reached home and google it. Sadly, the Angus is a mutated cow stated by Wiki.

But the returning isnt half that bad, i didnt have nausea at all, not at all. Which is something good, so i can at least perform better than normal. Had my 2nd check, isnt half that bad too. Reached Airport around 1am and Piggy came to pick me up.

Emergency call up

I was on standby but i went to check my schedule and double confirm that i had no flight before going on to hang out. Thereafter chit chatted with Piggy on the phone, she's all the way at Denmark and she feels so far away.

Hence we chatted till around 5am before i hanged up, Denmark time is bout 10pm la. Got everything done, charge my hp before i went to bed.

Who knows at 730am my hp rang and i literally jumped outta bed. When i picked up the phone, only to realise that im gonna to Hong Kong. The worst is yet to come, no information is displayed and i dont even know which terminal am i supposed to report to. So i just went straight down to do my things chop chop went onboard at 9am returned at 8pm.

It was so tiring, but at around 3pm during my break i received an sms from Piggy.

She said this,

"Miss u miss u i miss u Lionel Lee!!!!"

Seriously, i was so happy even though i slept only 2hrs and everything doesnt matter anymore.

Reached home, chit chatted with her for an hour plus before going to bed and i woke up at 3am called her again and talked for 2hr until my hp no more batt before i got my official sleep.

She's coming back tml 6am, and im going to airport to pick her up. Like finally hahaha <3

Daph and I wearing couple wear

Saying goodnight isn't letting you know I'm sleeping. It's my way of saying I remember you before I end my day

Monday

I'm at the Airport almost every single day since the day i graduate. Sending piggy to airport, picking piggy from airport, going to airport myself, piggy picking me up from the airport and it's been like this the entire week.

Today she's going to Jakarta, then gonna stay over till Sunday. But by then, ill be at Beijing makan-ing Peking duck and their XLB. Monday, then will i be back to SG and seriously, cant wait to see her on monday too.

Cant forget the way she looks at me just now. Those eyes, so yi yi bu she. But well, work calls, we need to manage our time well :)

Funny facts, we're looking at EC and the date of completion etc.

Jakarta

Did a Jakarta today, was super tiring and everything was so fast. I dont think im very very very slow, but i think i should be alright ba.

Overall i felt so tired, but after i touched down i saw Piggy at the airport i kinda automatically recharged.

Like those Lao fu lao qi, wife waiting for husband to come home for dinner. During my silent count, i couldnt stop staring at my ring looking at her name. Top Six(toxic) leh

She's gone on her first solo, surprisingly i woke up at 8+ thereafter couldnt go back to sleep. On my comp, rot infront of my comp till 10+ before heading back to bed.

Doing my h/w now, preparing for the necessary scene and role play, getting familiar with the preparation before my duty officially commence. I realised there's few things i'm unsure and i got no one to ask now. Jia lat man, hahaha.

why am i insecure

In my opinion, the reason why i became insecure is because of my previous relationship. But i'm trying very very very hard to shake that feeling off from me. I finally understood what Eve had told me, i thought it was her but now i realised things like this do happen.

For her, for us and for our future.

There's a reason why we met each other, there's a reason why we chose each other and i'll fight for that very reason.

My wings are fragile, like an injured bird. But you bandaged me up and embraced me, and now, it's time for me to soar and fly alongside with you.

Back from Muar

I'm back from Muar, i kinda miss there.
I love such serenity, if not for the security i wouldnt mind staying there the rest of my life.
Especially the time she drove me around, going everywhere. Felt as if we're married couples hahaha. Haiyo, how i wish time can freeze right there right then.

That will be good, aint it? hahahaha

*snap*

Back to reality, now i'm back in SG. Graduated from my training, somehow one way or another i dont feel that sad which i have no idea why. Probably because i had her with me all the time, thats why i didnt feel that sad.

No idea whether is it a good thing or not? hmmmmmm
Well well well, tml will be our first solo and i get to see her for 3 full days and 6 half days which is better than nothing of course.

*and i thought we can meet for 4 full days*

This sat

This sat i'll be going to Muar to meet her family members and friends. She had some kinda celebration etc going on at her home town, and tada, here i am going down with her.

serious

Everyone said i'm no longer the same, i have changed, what had happened to me?

Actually, all i can say, i became more serious since i'm attached. Fun time is over, and i'm all ready to settle down.

Others say, they're not use to not having me around, not use to not hearing my joke, laugher, singing, pranks and mischief. Everyone goes home after work, no longer hanging out after school, no longer chill out some where until 11plus midnight.

I wanted to say, i'm sorry. I only had few more days left, and i want to make it worthwhile with her. You can say me heavy colour, but i need to reassure her. As brothers and sisters, i'm grateful that you all understand this.

Next, to some girls they felt that i became less gentleman. Again, i need to say i'm sorry because the entitlement only entitled to my gf now. I dont wanna make her feel indifferent, and it's her privilege.

Last but not least, my world revolved around her now. We're both independent but we choose to be dependent :)

I hate it

If ur r/s is miserable, if you happen to not get into any r/s and had never dated please keep your comment to yourself.
Here i'm trying to reassure her, there u're trying to sound all negative. Sorry, i dont entertain that rubbish. If ur comments had backings, by all means i'll welcome it with open arms. Lagi better, if you can converse it with me. If not, please stfu :)

aha?

Someone told me this when i was working.
Your mistress touch your hair, your cock stands.
But your wife touch your cock, your hair stands

i'm back.....

i'm back from Melbourne, and the first person i saw was HER...
She came to the airport to wait for me.
*i can cuddle in her arms for hours or even days*

Melbourne

I'm going to Melbourne today. Cant wait for 12th Oct, then i can see her.

*I like the way she brushed my hair when i'm asleep*