funny conversation

Angline: eh Lionel, style your hair ar, you look good today.
Lionel: aha, always am *start touching my hair*
Angline: WHATEVER!!!


Pub owner: okie, cya guys. Come often ar.
Lionel: okie no problem *thumbs up*
Pub owner: yan dao, you slim down abit sure better looking.
Lionel: *smile* (knn)

Parents

every day without fail will come into my room accompany for half an hour or so if they are at home.
My mother told me to find afew oldies for her, then at the same time asked me to send it to Chloe.
She said the oldies has very nice lyrics, i should send to her, maybe she will gan dong.
But i said it's okie la, no use alr, it's alr over.

My dad leh, will come in and tell me his experience and everything.
Tell me it's okie to think of some one
look at my face, he can tell everything n etc etc.
But usual, he told me if miss her just sms her la, now technology so advance.
During his time, all they can do is to send letter blah blah blah.
Phone call also difficult, cycle all the way to another place to find the person.

I told my dad this, the world is changing.
We're different generation, it's this very technology that's affecting every r/s
Last time, you and mom dont get to see each other.
When meet alr then you all will start sharing everything.
Nowadays r/s, couple meet whole day alr, after that still need to sms and chat, sms and chat finish alr at night still can call each other and chat some more.

Without fail, this few days they always come into my room to accompany me.
Actually dont need them to accompany me la, cuz can be quite irritating.
Especially my DAD!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday

Dynasty KTV is damn bloody big la
bigger than my room, so big room for 4 people
Totally WTH la!!!!
10 plus pillows at the back for me to hug.
Got Mao Mao, Lu Lu, Ling Ling for us to order too. lol

Didnt sing much also, let the rest sing.
Only feel like singing 最长的电影， 林檬草的味 & 你快乐吗
But the suite was swee man, big and spacious.
Think Baoli took alot of photos of it.

After that we walked all the way to Bugis for steamboat
I thought at least gonna take bus or what, but ended up walk there.
Actually wanna go Chinatown steam boat, cuz cheaper & everything.
But Steamboat at that place was quite good too, it's like Koka lidat.
U order, order order, then they serve you, but abit ma fan cuz cannot go and choose the meat and everything yourself, have to wait for them to bring the food to you.

Tai ate alot xia, he one person eat all 3 of our share.
Ang called me after that told me she will be joining us.
Touched, but dont know whether issit cuz of me la.
initially she's at her friend's drinking session at Timbre but she say she be coming to find us once we reached the pub.

Tai left for the friend's birthday, we walked back to Selegie.
Initially Baoli didnt wanna drink, cuz she's being drinking for the past 3 days.
So just accompany and hang out at pub.
Ended up when the rest of us ordered Chivas, Baoli couldnt resist the temptation and ended up started drinking again. lol

Dont know how much i drank ytd, but enough to stop me from thinking.
Edmond puke and puke and puke.
Going home time also wanna puke.
Think he better stay away from alcohol, he damn lousy.

Ang came and she drank a lil bit, i forgot what we were playing
but we were playing some drinking game.
I dont know how much i drank also, but i know Edmond drank alot
Really a night to bury his sorrow. Emo shit. . . . .

Going home that time, we shared a cab with Baoli.
Send her home first then we make our way back home.
Think ytd lidat one night, i finished all the money i brought.
But i feel that it's okie.

最长的电影

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你
慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀画的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是
不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎


朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀画的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是
不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

saturday night fever

drank and drank and drank!!!!!
Feel so good, Edmond keep puking, lousy shit.
Hongwei the care taker, drank green tea raw, think we dumbo.
Bao & ang paid for nothing, cuz they never drink anything, HAHAHAHA.
Date on tuesday, Edmond go jio la, what u waiting for.
Poke POke POKe POKE!!!!!!!!

Edmond

fuck you!!!!!
Hide my Driving license, take her photo out
but thanks =)

Edmond sms me

He just got killed few mins ago
1km long train just ran him over
rest in peace dude
Perhaps after tonight's K + drinking session
u will feel better, whats urs is urs and whats not urs can never be urs.
Let's con't poking each other, i'll make sure the train reverse drift and run u over again.
But i hope my hp longer than urs la, later i limit break ar, i dont know.
Let me picture what u're gonna say, "bring it on", LOL!!!

Reply to Edmond's blog

"Guys and Girls. If you read this post. I appreciate if you don't comment on it.

Or ask me anything about it. I will be too shy or moodless to reply you =).

Want to console me or what, just ask me out for a drink or dinner will do.

Thank you!"


Wonder if you rmb any of this i talked to you before, we meant the same thing

"dont spoil it for me =)"

Bring it all back

Wei Ting send me this song in msn
Heard of it alot of times
but this time listening to it with deeper meaning.
'Dont stop never give up, hold your high and reach the top"

Hope

Do my things, finish my exam.
Hope she do well for her exam
after her exam, maybe can try to ask her out again.

Tidied up my room and shelf, looks much neater now.
packed my mj table, now it's more of a study table than a mj table.
Speaker getting worst and worst, gotta go get a new one soon.

Cold sweat

After giving tuition, went to pick up my car.
Walked upslope, u know those kinda multi-storey carpark.
I tripped and my body weigh was leaning forward
A car came down the slope, i'm like 'shit, i'm dead'
Luckily he slow down in time and i regain my balance.
Seriously, that moment, my palm is all sweaty
every part of my sweat duct is at it's maximum production.

what a relief, lol.
Usually i'm not the one who always tripped.
phew, cold sweat

worried for her

if things turned out fine, of course it's something good.
but seriously, some how or another, i'm quite worried for her too.
Not say i'm a nice guy or what la, but what if she got to know some bastard bf?
Those seriously damn bad and everything one.

Tai is here

Tai came over my place
But he's sleeping beside me now.
Some how i'm glad he's here.
At least i dont feel alone


I'm not a gay btw, so yap.
Quite poor thing also, he's being sleeping all the way since Ang called.
Nothing to do i guess.
Later then i call him up, let him rest abit more.
But i'm damn tired, tml still got tuition.
sigh


My jie mei asked me to go sch on tues and wed to accompany me to study.
Quite touched as usual, so yap, just go school.
At least got some one there, better than being alone.
Some how i missed her companion, but nothing much i can do i guess.

Ang called

Ang called, chatted for an hour plus.
Was quite long, but yap for the same reason too.
She called me to see how i'm doing and stuff lidat.
Told me the things she being talking to Baoli about
how they reached a mutual conclusion and stuff lidat.

As usual, Ang is damn good at talking.
Gifted speaker seriously, can talk n talk n talk.
The problem is i wouldnt feel irritated, unlike my parents. lol

i think she called me during her break, so there goes her break, wasted by me.
Felt so bad now, but certain things she said made sense.
Damn sian. . .

Criteria and changes

I had realised alot of problems of myself and i believed this r/s serves as a wake up call.
I'm so envious of Kun and Clara when i studied with them today.
It reminds me of the days when i'm with Chloe.
Slowly read thru the notes i took down during my journey with her.
Isnt something to be sad about, it enlightens me more.


Afew critical weakness about myself i really need to correct.

1) always late

2) always procrastinate

3) always has a excuse for everything

4) too much ego in me

5) take things for granted and not appreciative

6) too straight forward, when i'm unhappy, i'll just whack and dont care bout the consequences. Think abit attitude problem

7) very very lazy, really very lazy.

8) too much night life


these are some of the problems i really need to fix.
If i'm able to solve this one by one, i think i'll be a better person.

Today, i'm wasnt late for lunch, i wasnt late when meeting Kun.
Hope this will be the first changes and a permanent one.

I wrote my cover letter and resume, submitted my internship application last week.
Hopefully in future event, i wouldnt con't to procrastinate too =)

Thanks

Thanks Kim & Claire for ur care and concern.
It's really nice for the both of you.


Thanks Kun & Clara, for asking me out to study and lunch this few days.
It's really tough, very very tough period i can say.
Treasure Clara too, rmb what i told you, step 1 to 10 and not step 1 and 10.
You a nice bf and you will be.
Especially Clara, thanks for sharing Kun with me this few days.
Greatly appreciated.


Tai, u touched me alot alot.
Ur hugs and embrace this few days were really really very comfortable.
It was really really very nice, when you put ur hands and arms over my shoulder.
I seriously can cry in ur arms.


Edmond, all i can say is fuck you.
Stop putting ur evil plot and thoughts into me.
Stop plotting evil plans and polluting me!!!!
I'm engulf by evil thoughts but stop asking me to carry it out
Stop playing Emo songs infront of me!!!!!
Stop telling me she got another guy outside!!!!!!!
But still, i know you care for me.
Good luck there, hang in there, i know you can do it.
if you dont try, there's no hope, if you try, you have no regret.
This is what you told me.


Thanks Baoli for being so caring too.
Spending lunch with me
Read a book while i'm studying
Arrange a drinking and Ktv session
Knowing the exact phase i'm going thru.
It was really really very sweet of you.


Thanks my jie mei man for accompanying me in school too
Arrange studying session and even going back to JB late.
I know it was quite weird initially
but appreciated too =)


Charmaine, thanks for all your hugs.
it was really very very nice of you.
Greatly appreciated =)


Jiahui, before i forgot about u.
Thanks for arranging supper and invited all the guys from PMU over.
I do hope i dont have to send them home seriously.
But the effort is worth praising.
The call u made to me that night was really care and concern.


Kong, although abit funny.
Still ur sms touched me, i'm truly touched.
I understand what u're going thru too, cuz i'm going thru it too.
Hold on there kong, we will make it thru tgt.

studying at NTU

Kun asked me to go, thinking the whole afternoon whether should i go or not.
All that's going thru my mind at the point of time was this:

I will be wondering and looking around the whole time.
I will feel anxious, scared, worried, yet excited at the same time.
one part of me wants to see her but another part of me prays i will not bump into her.

if i do see her - myheart will stop, damn omg what should i do now?? starts to panic. i will be at a loss of what to do/say. worse if she sees me too.

if i dont - my heart will sink. I wonder where she was, what she was doing, who she was with. I'll be glad I didnt bump into her, yet secretly wish to catch a glance of her.

Sigh, but if i dont go, i wouldnt be studying at all. Which is quite bad, since my exams are around the corner too.
She feels that i'm distracting her studies, but the fact is that she distracted me from studying.

With all these things going on, how am i supposed to study in peace.
Everything is easier said than done.
Some can say just study la, fuck care xia.
if this was so easy, they wouldnt be so many suicide case right?
Or what? Cut wrist etc blah blah blah.

Dont know whether is this fate or what, Shi Jie asked me to go his church on Sat.
Has god decided to lift me up, to have faith in him, to ask me to go to him?
I dont know, seriously dont know.
But i have decided drop by his church this saturday.
Some how or another, it gives me the feeling, that god is calling out to me.

Kun is really very very nice, being asking me to study this few days.
He knows i couldnt study alone, and whenever i'm dazing he will slap my shoulder.
But thats good, cuz when i'm dazing i'm thinking of her.
But the bad thing is, i had to travel to NTU to study.

Finally something nice

Finally not a nightmare, cold sweat for the previous few nights.
What a dream, it was so nice but it's just a dream.

I dreamt that we're supposed to go some where, but dont know where.
So we decided to cycle together and she was wearing the track pants i bought for her and we started cycling, from 2 bikes to 1 bike and i tong pang her all the way until i woke up.

Long time, since i had a pimple on my face.
Must be due to the stress ba, pimple started popping out.

uploading photos

U sms me to ask me to not remove the pictures, cuz it's our sweetest memories
So i went to dig out photos before i started facebooking too.

At that moment, i dont know how to describe that feelings.
Cuz i had an album just for us, compiling pictures of us doing things since 06/07, slowly moving on to 08.

So i started looking thru your facebook photos, i realised the first 12albums are all taken with ur pageant friends.
Again, i felt quite sad looking at that.
But i just kept uploading and uploading the photos.
Took quite some time, my connection so sucky until i got damn du lan.
So yap, uploaded from 3am to 5am, only upload like 70 pictures? 2 hour xia, wth

sweetest memory

Better than nothing, at least i had an hour of happiness.
Hug each other for that 1hr, time has never pass by so so so so damn fast.
Every min past by damn bloody fast, the thing i know it's alr 830pm.
Requested for another 15min, ended up we finally part at 915pm

Very precise bout the timing, but mainly cuz i kept looking at the time.
We cried, we hugged, we embraced.
During these 5days, i was reallyvery emo.

When we hugged, i wanted to ask her again, 'do u really wanna break up?'
But i tried to hold back, i dont wanna spoil that last moment.
She rejected me repeatedly, i didnt wanna spoil my last moment with her.

"can you be my gf for this last 15min?"
How i wish time stops at that point of time.
It hurts me when she kept telling me this was her happiest r/s
It hurts me when she said she will tell her next bf how good am i

There's always this saying,
'you dont have to be with the person you love'
Ended up well i guess, i dont know whether is this the happy ending we're always talking about.

Finally told my parents

My mother keep telling me that r/s needs 2 hand to clap
i should be able to tolerate each other's weaknesses and flaw
i shouldnt be too self center and stuff lidat

My father kept telling me all these happens so fast
kept asking me why we break up

I dont know why, but their way of showing concern felt more like interrogation
After today, i think i need to draw a line.
Her is her, and me is me.
Hurts me to think of stuff this way, but i'll still be living in my dream.
Dreams are always sweeter than reality.

I love her, and i really do.
I will let it go now, but this will always be part of me.
She can text me and tell me, find a gf better than her.
what should i say?
Find a bf better than me?
crazy, i couldnt wait to throw a punch at him.

This few days can feel alot of evil thoughts engulfing me.
But i tell my self, i must retain who i am.

I always wonder why Zhi Qiang is so hard on himself
Probably cuz i'm in a r/s i wouldnt understand
but now i truly understand him.

For my dear friends

If u're my friends, please dont ask anything.
I really dont wanna think bout it.
Please, thats the only favour i'm asking you all.
Please dont spoil it for me.

I dont feel like telling anyone, thats why i write inside here.
Because i dont know who to confide to, how to confide to, and how to face it.
Even if u feel like tagging, dont tag.


Thanks alot
Deeply appreciate

stupid dad

Couldnt take it, reached home first thing asked me bout Sunday.
After which asked me what are we eating?
If not where i think we should go. . .
I got the present for mum alr or not?
Is it only the 3 of us?

Feel like talking to Tai, but he's working now. Sian.. .. ..
Alot of things on my mind, checking my hp every 1/2 an hour or an hour.
Just a natural habit of mine when my hp is right infront of me.
If it's on the bed it's so gonna be every hour or more than that.

Not that i'm bored, but just had the urge to reading thru old posts.
Quite lame, finished my resume and cover letter and send to KPMG, EY & SGX.
Hopefully it got in since i'm submitting in so late, all along i didnt wanna submit my application cuz my parents agreed to fund me to go Australia. Wanted to wait for things to settle down abit first before purchasing the ticket.

After all it's my Parents hard earn money, dont wanna let it go to waste just lidat. Cuz i'm having fun, but they are working their arse off paying for my air ticket. Not right la, thats what i feel. Maybe my feelings are abit too strong, but i know how it feels to be not too rich.
If it's my money, of course i deserve to expense it at my own leisure, but cannot be too selfish.

Standard Allowance: $200(tuition), $50(mum), random sum if my dad tio 4D/ToTo

Goal & aim:

Hell gonna get back to shape. Put on 12kg since the last time i went gym with Mingtai. Around 2yrs plus ago i guess, i think i need to balance my diet and my activities.

Study damn bloody hard for my coming exam, but couldnt focus. Actually this is not an excuse, like they will refund me money if i tell them i couldnt focus.

Critically analyse my 4D behaviour. I still feels that i had a 4D behaviour. Since last time, people says i'm very random. I think so too.

Think in more tuition, so that i can have a better lifestyle. Come to think of me, i'm damn thrifty, which isnt very good for a guy. I havent get back the $50 from Baoli, sian. Make this another goal ba, collect $50 from her.

Life goes on

Life goes on, had a feeling things like this is coming up. Just knew it, had this strong feeling for quite some time. Maybe can call this 6th sense or what, but yap, it indeed happened. I thought things were going well, but apparently it wasnt. So no regret, since i'm the major cause.


Sadness? Obviously they will be, but by remaining sad is childish. Unable to control my emotion is childish too, i'm childish, but i'm in terms of emotion i believed i'm wouldnt resign to it. Korean shows were crude, but nothing compare to this. Everything in your face, PIAK!!!


Looking at my room, my window, my monitor. Hmmm, my handphone, my quick dial. Shucks, open my wallet too, it's every where. Sunday's coming, sian, my mum's birthday will be on that day, extra sian. What I am gonna do on Sunday? Dont know, dont care, dont bother.


Took out my key, put on the table, key chain all scratched, with holes here n there. Wanna take my examiner report on my book shelf, shucks, all over the place. When it's time to sleep, the yellowish birdy from the jackpot machine. If i'm gonna include all the miniature on the table it's gonna go on and on. Like the deflated Balloon with the bear, the Famous Amos fungus cookie wrapper, fake toy flower.


Alamak, giotto boxes lying every where, weird fetish for junk stuff. If i'm gonna dig my tissue box, got few decomposed Hersey lying inside. Actually i know it's there for years alr, but just couldnt bear to throw it. Even all the shopping bags, i always dump all into my cupboard, inside all those junk plastic bags collect from all over the place. Blossom, popular, challenger, world of spot n blah blah blah. LOL


Absence makes the heart grow fonder, ended up it's just me being petty, revengeful, too strong feelings, having an attitude, bad behaviour. Piak!!!!!!! Ouch, it hurts, machiam tight slap xia. Feels like privatising my blog, i dont feel like seeing the future too, cuz i know what it's gonna be like.


Things may turn out to be what i expected, i'm not an extremely smart person. But at least my feelings doesnt lie, at least i got it correct when one falls for another. So I wouldnt be surprised if my prediction comes true. Nice guy, easy to talk to etc etc. So yap, aint hard to tell. But maybe i'm over sensitive, cuz when things happen too fast, people tend to think too much. Like Tai & HongWei always say, 'Lionel, 你想太多啦 kao."


I finally understood why my right eye being twitching for the past 2 weeks, and i guess its bout that time. It still couldnt stop twitching. I'm quite superstitious, rather believe than not. So yap. People say that right eye twitch means something bad gonna happen. Misfortune indeed has befall. I kept wondering whats gonna happen, couldnt really figure it out, initially was damn worry. Edmond told me, "it might not happen to u, it might happen to people close to you." Then i became damn worried for my parents and people close to me. Well, ended up it all happens on me, so yap, i'm right after all.


Everything feels like a dream man, at 10pm, the stupid radio was playing some kinda sentimental oldies. I'm like totally wtf? Not so suey ba, at a time like this. Sian!!!!!! Forgot sang by who alr, cuz i just switched it off, and on my Wonder Girls and SNSD. Catchy catchy, but stupid chorus with 'want nobody but you' if not SNSD will go 'with my trembling heart, it's thumping thumping,' zZz dot dot dot poke poke poke!!!!!!!!


HW, need to pay copyright if u're using poke poke poke dot dot dot z z z~!

SNSD Girls Generation

Okie, ahahaha, no more wonder girls, it's SNSD Girls Generation. Their songs are kinda cute and happy. Those kinda super lively dancers.

See how addictive they are

People behind couldnt help but to dance along!!!!!!!!

OMG, they are so funny!!

This is crazy (wonder girls)

Omg, this is crazy man. Check out the Videos

OMG, so TANGO!!!! so In love!!!!!!!!!!!

Heart to Heart talk with my Jie Mei

A quite old photo, but nvm. These are my Jie Mei in school. Today studied in school with them plus photocopy plus lunching together. Reached school quite late, around 1045am supposedly 10am, but i reached the comp lab earlier than them.


I went to photocopy FM examiner reports, after photocopying for 2 years then i rmbed i photocopied them like 5months ago, immediately halt all process and i realised i wasted 1/3 of the paper i brought there. Damn sian, cuz i'm running out of paper. Ended up i need to get from WeiTing, the worst thing was i suan her last night, telling her i'm not gonna lend her paper if she ran out of papers. Ended i'm the one who needs to borrow from her. zZz


I was doing the photocopying, then XiaoFeng helped me on the printing jobs. So it was much faster than the first time which i took 2h to photocopy everything. Something screwed up, instead of selecting printer 2 xf selected Printer 1. So the person beside me keep printing my job and i think she's quite du lan.


All done by 12pm, went Ngee Ann for lunch. We ordered the Mini Wok and xf ordered Penyett, Indonesian Cuisine. Ended up she was complaining it's damn oily. I didnt know she's so health conscious la, damn shocked.


Ended our lunch at around 2pm, went back to school found a bench sat there. Heart to Heart talk till around 5.30pm then XF took MRT with me to Outram and she dropped off at Chinatown. Seriously we damn long never meet up alr, today we update to the max man. From ahem to ahem, and more ahem. Private and confidential.


After the 5hr talk, i realised xf keep humming the Nobody song by Wonder Girls, and wt was saying the song is quite catchy but i spoilt everything for her. I'm like wth, but at least i recruited 2 members. Happy happy!!!

hmmmmm

Got a feeling Clara doesnt like me, but hopefully my assumption is wrong la. Dont know bout Kun's side, as for me, since last time I always treat him and Tesmmon as my buddy. Obviously Tesmmon is too obsess with his Starhub friends, so now only left with Kun.


Buddy buddy so must at least get along with the gf. I'm thinking whether is it cuz of the things i do to try to get along with her makes her feels irritated. Maybe just behave normally and things will turn out fine, if try too hard later she feels even more irritated then i die. No need to hang out with Kun liao.


Also scare i asked Kun out to study too much, then Kun's time spend with her dropped. Maybe cuz of this thats why she doesnt like me. Hmmm, put on my thinking cap =)